a famosa.not very fun.

i like it horizontal

darth vader 1

darth vader 2

scribble.my

no need to say goodbye.wait.the call.

poem that i suddenly want to post*

euphoria-
i want it to last
as long as i want it to

its always like that

change it
can i?

there
a smile is
always keeping
my euphoric mood

i want
that smile to last

i want
to remember

i want
to share
Euphoria
in my heart

with them all

sorrow in their eyes
gomen ne

couldnt help

i dont want
to be
the only one happy

stirring my mood
with music
i feel
i must
not i can-
i have to
save them

forget
i musnt

i will
still
smile
for you guys

wait for me
i wont be long

my CLIOD @ TayLor;S AdP =)

おす! lol* this post will be dang long since i'd be gone to melaka tomorrow and the day after that.

firstly,"dear blog, today i am very happy to be at taylors today and i still owe my good fren ching wei rm10 phone credit."-to ching wei..haha you asked for it you got it =D lol*

today i felt totally (looking into thesaurus) lol* wow my vocabs still weak.hehe=) well i was quite happy with a lil bit of feeling of growing up.today, is when i realise certain things. well that part is a secret;P is so cool to grow up.is so fun to age.i really feel like i was and am and will be the luckiest boy who has the finest life in the whole wide world lol* sounded like a child=)

to be honest, i wasnt really..pause..sorry, i hav not introduced you guys to what CLIOD is.it actually stands 4 college life in one day and i chose ADP which is american degree transfer program along with ching wei whilst my other frens went to SAM-south australian matriculation..good 4 u sam! lol*so many of them support you! me and ching wei betrayed u sorry! lol* get well soon from ur chicknpox =D

yea back to the topic..i wasnt actually looking forward to this program since i wasnt exposed much to these kinds of prgms. unexpectedly it was REAL fun you guys! first off i woke up at 5.45 which was pretty much early so....i played persona 3 on ps2 for a couple of minutes =P then mom cattered 斋饭 which i could enjoy in the car lol* ure the best,mom!

i reached there bout 7.05 and i was waiting at the taylor's main building which was behing our school but thx to cw i wasnt blindly going in there lol*cuz it wasnt held there. this is why i regret never checking my emails XD

enough of granma stories dude! hehe..forgive my 'long-gasness'.well it was a really blissful experience ya know=) first off we had breakfast (again XD) then we were sent into some place like a hall where our activities would be held..then there was icebreaking.it was quite similar of what i experienced at my old school's prefect's meeting,except that it wasnt first impression.

and i was off with my usual 'shy-ness' (dont la;D) i got 2 quiets,1 shy,1 serious,1 lively(wow),and 1 artistic(thanks alot=P) after that we were paired with our so called'buddies' who would guide us thru our day.well who're they,theyre hawt ,kind guys and gals from the ADP section. haha. the hawtest thing to me is the way they speak=) dang! cool man! you guys rock! unexpectedly too, the number of buds had exceeded the number of participants..

so..

i got 2 buddies..yay!=) everybody had 2 in fact lol* silly me=D my buddies are sharmaine (dunno if i spelt it rite) and xin yee.consequently my buds had brought me to my classes where i get to experience and view the process of learning there. i was assigned to chem (YAY) and economics (OHHH/OMG) it was quite fun to me, except when economics, i almost fell asleep cuz i dont really like it(tho the lecturer was hilarious)

and yeah, you guys rock to the core!

thx yall!

had fun, really. haha.

after lunch, we also had a series of activities which was quite fun=) i had fun.couldnt stop my grateful feeling now haha, weird me=) emo me has metamorphed into happy-go-lucky now lol*

i really appreciate what you buddies did for me and the rest of us.

i'd definitely grow stronger, i mean emotionally, thank you guys. you have no idea how much it means to me.

and i'd definitely go to ADP next year! lol* you guys hav succeeded by 1/15x100% hahax..

hope to meet you guys there.seriously,you guys rawk! (how many times did i mention it?)

ADP rawks too!

i was kinda regretful that i did not camwhore with them all over there today lol* thank you guys, i'll be brave now onwards thx to you guys..i wont frown upon small matters and i'll wait for campus life!!! lol* cant wait...>.<

wow, no idea i can be so granma-ish..well on to the pictures

der hall

namecard です

thanks yall!

college chem looks fun =) lol*

p/s :if you buddies are reading this, please leave a comment or sth or in the chat box..hope to keep in touch with you guys..dont mind to have more blog frens;D

well ciao guys!

じゃね~

start of the hols

well as promised these r the pics 4 the "'emo"'photobooth stuff..

(chua looks so japanese!!! and lol all gals got the 'mirror head' so xaupei la sehsen!!)

no posts yesterday cuz was freakin fucked up and freakindaim tired...as for the f***ed up thang i duwanna mention it..as for tired there was a reason..

we had a sleepover at seek sean's!!!and we watched 'ONE LAST CALL'(freaky)and SHINOBI(cool jap mov)..lol din get the chance to scream haha one last call was freakin scary tho..to me.

no pictures tho..

bt b4 that..my family and i went to a place called niuzesui at damansara..its kinda like an open air shopping mall but..==..it seems like newly opened so......very un-shopable.==..but it broke the malaysia's record for the largest open air shopping mall =D

some pics here may do some explanationXDthere was also an exhibition for animals lol=D

good ol' starbucks =D 3 tingkat,walao a!

empty carpark lol

in progress..

entrance

spot me

fat guy

i was playin with this cute lil guy here =D

as i was sayin,its really really unoccupied yet lol

lol thats all for now.

じゃね~

sunway pandemonium

a pandemonium landed on sunway pyramid on 23rd may 2008,thats when a group of sunway whores landed lol -.-

us- guys:ej, sehsen, seeksean, chua, benny and lastly me

the gals: elise, amy, anisha, nisha, janne,and cheryl

we watched THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA:PRINCE CASPIAN..nice cool movie..wanna get the book T.T..too many books to read!!

btw,amy..dont feel bad on the popcorns(sarcastic tone)XD

haha..and chua dont la, dont buy the shirt la 'YOU SUCK'lol

so much fun@@
let the pics say:)

unfortunately we dint camwhore much..sry elise if you planned to grab some photos here):

oh...the mouse dang cute=)

camwhore emo much!! lol lazy to scan la..mayb wait 4 ej

me and chua bought this lol!!! cool man...got better one..u guys should see seeksean's

well dudes and dudettes, happay holaydays!!!!!!!!! happy. must be. itekibasho! suteki ne? bye bye! signing off, the sucker.p/s:next time must cam whore more!

tagtag..no tagtag..urgh..tagtag la nvm just tagtag>>syok sendiri

8 things i am passion8 about:
=>thinking and emo-ing
=>my piano
=>drawing scribbling colouring shading designing>>in progress of reusing flash and photoshop>>urgh my short sightedness just 'improved' from 50 50 to 100 75..
=>my books
=>Japan>>NIHON-GO rox =D
=>the best>>maths and lots of them =P
=>i luv chemistry alot. when chia teaches. more stuff.
=>my life>>i must stop emoing and gambateh to get cheerful blissful and happy(triple positive XD)

8 things i say too often:
=>ey & weh/wey
=>lo,la,ma,leh (proud to be malaysian)
=>lmao,rofl,lol,roflmao,haha,hehe,muhahaha,wtf,wth (i hope i wont put it in my essays)
=>damn cool,damn fake,damn funny,damn stupid,damn+(adj)...(replace experiment by replacing damn with daim and dang,observations are recorded XD)
=>rude words
=>dont lah,eeyer,tsch(you know,the sound you always make when you feel f***ed up by some phenomenon-you stick your tongue onto the upper wall of ur mouth then suck)
=>really?,serious?,dont lie la,really?,seriously?,dont la,ur not lying?,then?,wtf..
=>nothing.never mind.suan liao.dont bug me.
(actually more than 8 la..)

8 books i've read recently:
finished:
=>the case of the..wut midnight..wut wut..murder of dog one..aiyah..by mark haddon
=>d gray man comic 1st volume
in progress:
=>d gray man comic 2nd-14th volume
=>爱·上课
=>p/s: i love you...by cecelia ahern
=>永远の约定..by鎌田實*黑柳徹子
=>stpm mathematics s&t paper 1,organic chemsitry,physical chemistry
going to:
=>da vinci code..by dan brown
(please note that i am a planner..not a doer XD)

8 songs i could listen to over and over again:
=>euforia~hikigatari>>yui makino
=>tatakau mono tatsu(piano)>>nobuo uematsu
=>all YUI songs esp>>Am i wrong?,we will go,love is all,my generation,goodbye days,skyline..oh she is soooooo cool with her guitar(or bass) lol(spacing off XD)
=>fonogenico>> all!(a jazz and ballad band)(jap!)
=>taiyo no uta ost>>from sunset to sunrise & wish
=>debussy punya piano works>>suite bergamasque(all),images(all),arabesque(1st one sian liao-prefer 2nd),la plus que lente
=>nobuo uematsu punya piano works>>ALL!!
=>some english songs>>bleeding love(leona lewis),avril lavigne's,colbie calliat's,mercy(duffy)
(actually more than 8 la..)

8 things I learned last year and this year:
lol i dont know la..so many..
=>not to emo too mush..uh oh sry lol is much*
=>must not be lazy!!
=>when you have the will, dont lose it, go do it b4 it fades! (fades too many times in me..i must grab it..the chance)
=>be happy esp in high school-its the best time of our lives-ENJOY!
=>smile. no matter what. dont freak out when i smile wout a reason k? "smile is contagious"
=>laugh all you want!! laugh until u have to grab ur breath asap!! have fun!! go on and laugh!!
=>be considerate=)
=>love everyone=D spread the love of living in this world..lets make it a better world together!! "together we stand".."we will go".."oh yeah"

8 people i wanna tag:
=>likpin
=>erica
=>ej
=>elise
=>amy
=>cheryl
=>gyhs
=>kwanyee

bitter-not-sweet scent of karma @ mis-taken

decided to write something bout this after reading elise's blog.

fyi not, there's been a serious earthquake in szechuan, china lately.
'why us?' the victims ask.
what do i ask? nothing. how filthy am i. some people out there too.
they dont care.

to be specific, they dont wish to know. because its so devastating.

we fill ourselves with grieve and sympathy and fear. by knowing the truth.

fear.

nobody wanted it to happen.
it just......happened.
nothing could stop it.

because it was our Mother who was causing it.

avoidance was not implemented but though it was, it wont be the solution for every time.

so many people died.

duh. did i need to say that? maybe i just need reassurance. so many people died..and what did i do to help?can i save them all? that would be selfish and selfless at the same time and impossible.-helpless-

why?

why in the bleedin hell?

we always say 'enjoy'. then something happen. then we question. then we grief. then we let go. going back to 'enjoy'. we forget. perhaps i shouldve changed the we to i.

reviewing back into our pasts..our race's pasts.
did we hurt Mother Gaia so badly?
not much people are aware.
not much people are repenting.
not much people mourn for her.

perhaps this is time, its karma.

but.

it was definitely the wrong guy. "you've got the wrong guy" i want to say it to whoever caused this.
so many children died.
did they do wrong?

why dont those that pollute die?

welcome to earth, the unfair world.

making it fair? who doesnt want?

i want it. totally.

i musnt lose hope.

but i just did.

repair me.
onegai.

off to the musics,
kazjun

invigorated

looking forward to this day since getting the exam schedule. freaking anxious.

well my anxiety paid off well. perhaps great,you'd say. or unexpected.

add maths-today. started at 8 am.then uh oh.. i was like still in the sleepy mode. i mean, not that my mind's not clear for that but my hands. ever had the experience of not writing something for long time then writing again? exactly.

my writing was lousy like a bunch of rabbit dung over the paper. well that was unappropriate. ever seen rabbit shit? its like coco crunch. *lol* haha thats right folks, never ever eat cocoa crunch.

paper one was quite un-challenging. tho i did not have 100%confidence to score full, it was just plain old normal exercise to me. drew another character. happy that i did great job (in my opinion) in the design.*syok sendiri*

well here's the invigorating part.

paper 2. hell i was stupid. you know where the part b and part c, you can choose 2 or 3 questions, something like that.

i realised that only when puan lim said it was 3 minutes to 12.30 which was 15 minutes to the finishing time.

fuck.

not!

i was nearly finishing! lucky me. finished it exactly on time!

this is not the point. its the questions. i finally found some teacher who'd give such high level thinking questions like puan ang-puan zurina,our add maths teach. great teacher. pity she's not stern enough. she's great.

seriously.it was fun. if you see me smiling while doing this paper, please dont get insulted. its just fun =) i dont care if i was wrong. my motive was: i want to 'decode' all the questions! so what if im stupid doing all those questions? lol. what am i saying?

i just feel really psyched up now. ready for more. tomorrow is maths. nah.wont expect much like today's fun. well i still hope it will.

btw guys..this anime is cool-seto no hanayome.freaking funny.

じゃね~

trash here

noe wut? i wont gossip anymore.

hell.

i hate frenship. mine i mean. during the worst it kills me. i hide it. the feeling. u guys wont understand. during the best? i mean happy? i was never truly happy.

throwing a bucket of water at me when im cold. thanks. i'll drink it. and hell yeah. im a mf-in rude bloody bleedin person.

wat? cant stand it? go away.

solitary is the best.

i can smile by myself.

but u'll then see me at tanjong rambutan.

hell. keeping quiet. i will.

shut up, andre.

you just found ur meaning of life and yet betrayed suddenly, and now ure ftzing?

fuck off. go study.

will you just shut up, andre?

bye. it was never flawless. my friendships were never perfect. guess what? dont come close to me. i'll kill u. with my rudeness. so bloody f*** off!!

how more pesky can i be?

i was happy. cuz it was goin to be add maths, and maths, and bio, and chem, and physics, i enjoy them, and hell was over-sejarah.well i was hyper,

but thanks. now i wont keep it to myself.

i'll just say if i dont like u. open. dont like me?

walk away. just do it. nike. walk away. kelly clarkson. keep bleedin. leona lewis. wish. kaoru amane. how i wish to just become immortal. IMMORTAL. like a bakemono or sth.can i be a true exorcist like in d gray man? or can i just become un-die-able like in new amsterdam?

f***ing off,
kazjun

p/s:elise,does it hurt more being hurt by him or ur best frens?

flat*

.....
......
.......
........
.........
..........
now my mood is......happy!!

lol...
now if my frens are reading this they'd definitely go like-walao, u duneed to study ar???
or like-cuan la, duneed study liao la!

but since tml is english only,why not think of a better way to practice?lol..
but literature leh?
guess wat?i dun care..but.......k la...studay l8r lo...
btw,watched an old anime-D gray man..rox till the root...
the mangaka is so damn geng..nice..whther character design or the outfit..all rox!!!

haha..noe why am i so happy?
this sentence starts to work in me:
把手放在胸口上，能感觉心跳‘怦怦’的声音，好高兴啊，我还活着。
ずっといきて!!!

everyone is not giving up neither will i!! go beta! strive for excellence!

btw this song rox-mercy by duffy..go listen it at likpin's blog lol=P

and...last but not least..exam tradition:

random-my rabbit Boo boo:

bye=) smile*

operation: MOM

oh wut should i do this sunday 4 mom?
should i buy a cake?
or bake one?
or make breakfast?
or make a card?
hug her only?
giv her a kiss?
accompany her to shopping?=P
go granma's house celebrate?
oooo.....
wut shud i choose????
wholy....cow...
how?
have to make up my mind soon...if not no time to study XD

k now its my turn likpin:
countdown...2 days left..to

MID-YEAR EXAMS@@

whatever.
bye.
woooohhhhhhhhhh!!!!
seriously,
bye.

meet the pros

hi guys...i want you to meet my class' top models!! they won the lollmaorofl award of model(s) of the year(citation needed wtf)..guys meet...

esther(jun sean) and nisha(william chua)

fcuk.....................newest handbags!! lol umm is that so and so?

lmao wtf-laughing all the way

and the physics teacher was still in class =D

theyre not gays...just...gay-er!!haha wth

oh ok...lets talk crap now...urghh agin...today i just changed my mind of not changing class.. wtf then mom told me she asked mr chew and he wants to see me tml wthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwthwth... what the hell........how? omg la...gg lo..gg..frens pls buy a coffin for me if i say anything wrong infront of mr chew..........today i 上香!!! lol pray that mr chew forgets. omg. omg. omdg. omfg. jesus.

off with my soliloquy,kazjun.08 p/s i feel blue XD

whatever

tryna cheer myself up..pity me=)






effective =D

signing off, kazjun
wait!! not yet...more please....




k fine...

β.δ.γ.

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!STRESSSSSSSSSSss......................................

not from exam but, urgh...why can i frown over sth so simple?pls tell me wat to do....im so unhappy but happy in beta but....

urghh i want better teachers!!! and better class...its just too much...

demanding, thats me.hate this situation. so frus to make decisions..its not that the class has prob, but i just cant cope with it!!

esp chemistry, yes chemistry..to be honest, now i want pn nasiwah back.

and physics, urghhh i cant believe im saying this but i want the the annyoing sarcasm king back..

then bm,now new teacher agin..dunno why they all hate cik teo so much..she's the best bm teacher ever!! i can see improvement in my bm lar..i noe u all got tuition lar (some of them) but...urgh..

then english...cant you stop giving papers, pn d***? its hard compiling it ya? i hate it..consumes so much time!! waste of time..

then bio, omg this is the worst..annoying brats..(some lar...not my frens)pn zawiyah is a good teach, no one realises it. she's dedicated yet some spoiled brats always interupt her teaching then all that...urghh...emo.....she planted the interest in bio in me..she tries her best always and yet there are spoiled brats to ruin it.sorry but its too much..

but,from the first day to beta till now,there's still sense of familarity, frens there..

how can i betray them?

urghhh....

izit my fault?

urghhh...

i made little frens but its just too hard for me to betray..

my frens:

-ej:best of the best fren n cuz..i think he'll be mad at me for decades if i decide to change class..=D

-s.sean:best dai lou..straightforward..protective bro=)

-c.wei:best fren..a lil funny..straightforward..friendly..he'll hit me if i tell him i wanna change..=P

-s.sen:best joker in class..concerning..extrovert..but he'll be the happiest person if i change class..cuz i made him a non-top-10..gg <=)

-sam:quiet but funny..hehe^^

-amy:best blog fren..funny..caring..good english=) oh yea and CAMWHORER like me

-elise:best blog fren..best class monitor..CAMWHORER=P

-w.chua:best msn fren..funny!..best red house fren..great runner^^

-z.zung:best drawing fren..quiet but good at chinese^^

-c.shyen:best drawing fren..everyones fren!..mizugami--watergod..he drinks more than 4 bottles a day @school!!

-benny:best msn fren..he's the best^^lol he recomended 2 films that changed my thinking and life..thx benny!! @.@

how shud i face them??urghh and then..more urghhhhhhhhhs.....

anyone? help?-echoes-....

i'm desperate..

sorry wrong pic XD

tasukete..

signing off,

kazjun

lyricwhorer

this is the lyrics to my new fav song Am I Wrong? by my fav artist YUI..
posting for fun..nvm if cant understand..just as deco and fun to me=)

黙っていた　それはYESかNOだけで
決められないことだってすぐにわかったから

目をそらしたら
たぶん　話し出すのね？
あなたは・・・

こわいものなんてないの
失うものなんてないの
今日も歌を作りました
許してゆこうと歌いました　それなのに・・・

電話が鳴る　一時中断しただけで
笑ったりよくできるなと　見ていた

機嫌が悪いだけだと
きっと思ってるんでしょう？
あなたは・・・

守るものはたったひとつ
心に嘘はつけないの
今日も歌を作りました
続けてゆこうと歌いました　それなのに・・・

わかりあえないね　あなたとは

困らせたりしたくないよ
でも譲るわけにいかないよ
明日も歌を作るから
偽りなく生きていたいよ
それなのに・・・それだけなのに　ah ah

Am I wrong?

ambiguity of my life

guess u guys know what this is huh? yeap the periodic table..hehe some place to start my yapping.im very interested in chemistry,i mean the pure chemistry thing..not the 'kemistery' devised by our goood govt..to be honest..it sucks..letting us know the least, ya know the feeling of knowing something but not knowing the truth of it or whole of it?

well lets cut the crap..

chemistry is just like our world.there are so many different kinds of people.just as many as there are so many elements and compunds present in our eccentric world..there is always ambiguity-nothing is definite in this world,almost.hehe.

i just lost my inspiration of blogging bout this topic..probably from the stress of my lousy internet connection but well what can i do bout it? acceptance is the only way, why stress? wait for the correct time to tackle the problem.=)

i feel great.growing up to being an adult is great.knowing more.realising.though it is stressful its worth it to embrace the process.

iijanai ka koron datte? mada okiakareba dainkara. koronda tsuide ni sorao miagereba, aoizora ga kyomo kagirinaku hirokata hohoendeiru. atashiwa ikiterunda.

isnt it okay to fall down? just stand up again. at the same time of falling, look at the sky, today's blue sky is also smiling without borders. i'm alive. =)

well so far today is the fastest recovery from emo-ing for me this year. i hope to improve to be a more optimistic and cheerful person so that i can be 100% camwhorer lol=)

i hope to complete further research done currently ASAP so that i can do more things such as improving my vocab for my novel..perhaps i can start writing, since so much inspiration is flowing in.no waiting! hehe..but at least wait till during exams la..now do preparation 1st then exam relax..my style =P

i'm ok.i always will.

把手放在胸口上，能感觉心跳‘怦怦’的声音，好高兴啊，我还活着。

妈妈，在我心中有着一直相信我的妈妈存在，今后也请你多多关照了。总是让您担心，对不起了。

不会再说想要回到那一天，我要认同现在的自己活下去。

虽然也会被无心的目光所刺伤，也明白了同样有温柔的目光。

signing off,

kazjun.08

lost

nothing here.bye.

fuck.its me.no way i can take it.this is too much.im lost.fuck.so many problem budging in.fuck.fuck.now i realise i will emo w'out some music.fuck.dependent lil brat.fuck.im ok.just..fuck.i need to release.just...lemme say sth...FU_CK.