getting back

just like a tattoo..i'll always have you..jordin sparks' 'tattoo'. music has always been the best remedy to my soul and of course i'll have to choose the right songs. to my frens who need help for healing..im the one u can depend on if u need music =) i'm back now y'all! ready to continue with my pesky little life. pesky i said that is i did not type wrong, not at all. this world is like so wide and yet many humans still think they are all that they can do wut ever they want. well i've been sick (food poisoning) for the past few days that i have some time to at least be sum paranoid to do sum 'thinking' i guess. we see in the papers,media-foolish people doing foolish things.for example now murders.did they ever thought that they are just killing their own species? homosapiens-humans, a being with slightly better mind than other animals. they do such foolish things to kill themselves and become like the mammoths or dinasours,extinct. they do not know that being fooled by their own emotions can lead to that. they are also selfish creatures, some even fight for some special paper called money. its originally made for systematical uses, not for making us extinct..indirectly.why dont they use it for making our race-human get better? in order to keep our heredity, our home-earth alive, we need EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF THINKING BRAIN. where has their rational gone?? im not protesting that it is wrong to have feelings..we were born with it.we should embrace it, not MISUSE AND BEING OVERWHELMED by it.everyone must have a proper place to let it all out. not to kill people. not to misuse drugs. just tell. everyone needs a friend. help a friend whenever ure calm. listen to music. learn things. sometimes tv works great in fact it always does. but take care of ur eyes. blog. ppl will listen. speak and u will be heeded. but make sure u dont talk crap. seek professional help if u need. no one has the right to say ure a psycho,unless ure really one that is already 50% unstable psychologically. enough complaining then get back to real world. we can change the world. humans are colonial animals. we WORK AS ONE TEAM. a big one. we cant see it. all we need to do is help save our race and earth. if we are consistent enough, who knows what we can achieve? cooperate with extra terrestrials? eternal life? another race of humans? conquer over the balance of nature? exploring out of milky way? where is the spirit? why are there such selfish ppl? they worship money, they embrace status. why cant they see it as a system for a better life? what they actually should worship- GOOD ATTITUDE+HAPPINESS+CALMNESS. let me share something, see.

unfortunately, everything i do is always maths so...

let A=1, B=2, C=3 and so on..

lets start with 'HARDWORK'

H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K
=8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11
=98% ??

K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E
=11+14+!5+23+12+5+4+7+5
=96% ??

its not 100

then what about

L+O+V+E
=12+15+22+5
=54% ????

L+U+C+K
=12+21+3+11
=47% ?????

dont most of us think this is the most important?

then what makes 100%???

M+O+N+E+Y
=13+15+14+5+25
=72%

NO!!!!!!

L+E+A+D+E+R+S+H+I+P
=12+5+1+4+5+18+19+9+16
=89%

NO!!!!!

LETS GO FURTHER A BIT MORE...

then

A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E
=1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5
=100%

CHANGE UR ATTITUDE, and Get a change in your life as REWARD.

cheers,
kazu jun

trOugH of ThA y3aR

andre wants to be addressed as kazuya today..kazu is currently VERY *down*..sour*..
kazu feels blue today:< fire of creativity is NOT burning..kazu did not realise such a crush could kill almost all of himself..desperate~BlAnk and 3Mptin3Ss fills his heart..kazu is currently very full of regrets and remorse..by calculation, the current combination fulfills the title TROUGH OF THE YEAR..kazu has an advice for frens..desperation may appear a good source of inspiration, but it may also as an inhibitant for creativity..kazu is very lonely now..bcuz no one can understand him and he doesnt want ppl to do so..he is very EMO now. kazu cannot concentrate now on anything else. he is VERY WEAK now..he is letting his foolish emotion to take over his logic mind. he is also blended with jealousy, hatred, long-supressed emotions, cowardice, fear,and of course, worried-ness..kazu feels he should cry to relieve the problems, but luckily his rational says that it is so totally irrational dude..kazu thinks he is very weak. he wants to commit suicide but there is too much pulling him from so. kazu is afraid of death. kazu wants a true friend to trust and share secrets and all of them. kazu wants a talking pet to fulfill such demand. kazu is very tired of these emotions and ready to let them out anytime. kazu feels that it is stupid to frown over these silly emotions and stop reaching for his dreams, but he did not expect to be so totally ultimately overwhelmed by these emos. kazu needs a break from everything. he wants to sign off now.zzzzzzz.

intense crush much?

Ever had a crush on a certain someone? well fyi, I had..and now I am very down because of certain something happened..well its not like I had confessed or wut cuz I noe very clearly THIS is NOT the age for me to do so..lurve life are for adults and I might not wanna let it affect my life. BUT it is the nature of adolesents to start having interest in a certain someone..that certain something happened not long ago, and now I have the largest ‘down’ of the year. In fact it started since that happened till now..well its NOT that the certain someone had rejected me or wut cuz I din even confess..in fact we dont noe each other..tho I noe about that person..a lil bit..am I being stupid? I am indeed being fooled around by my own emotions..thats why I cannot ever be a calm person..thats one more thing I’ve just learned bout meself that is, I am emo. This is not my first time having a crush,but it is the first time so deep. Those who have been thru this will understand me lar..when the person done something that may seem harmless or wutever-I-dunno-how-to-explain, well it may hurt the secret admirer-in this case its me..haha..never thought I’d have to go thru this lurve thing..so foolish..in fact I’m only listenin to ‘bleeding love’by leona lewis now..it may a lil bit explain my condition..lol in fact music has always been the best remedy to my emo soul..XD..and please don’t guess who it is..whoever knowing me..onegai..perhaps this is the true inspiration for me to WANT to write a novel,lik..hahazz..and now I am TOTALLY down..i cant do maths..when I think I only think bout that person..i cant draw..cuz when I draw I’ll probably draw the certain someone and FAIL usually..and then I cant play piano suddenly cuz my hand hurts..my skills decreases dramatically..cuz of my emos..well maybe a nap will heal ma soul too..gotta pull myself together and move on..now I’m thinking of ‘tattoo’ by jordin sparks..perhaps that person is a tattoo in my book eh, lik? Get ready cuz I definitely write something ECCENTRIC and unique..and that is not a guarantee..i just have the feeling already^^ ‘brand new days’=P

perfect holiDAY

whew..juz bak from basketball wif sum ol frenz^^..wut a great holiday was yesterday..hehe..fun=P tho none of my frens blog bout it i decided to share it teehee..it was a fine mornin when i was awake at 9.30 am n mom took us-me n bros to the best 'roti canai' in town to hav breakfast-typical malaysian=P then time flew by quickly while i was reading till half of the bestseller book i bought the day b4 yesterday-"the curious incident of the dog in the night-time"-yea,quite a fine book full of humour and irony-fascinating to read,but beware of usage of "coarse" language in the dialogues and wrong spellings in the letter from the lead's mom-but a lovely novel..then it was 12.40 when i took my bike n cycled to go meet lik,rica n sam-who's juz bak from tuition..we had lunch at a nearby "yun tun mian"stall-tho i dint eat cuz i was liek so full from breakfast^^ lik and rica shared their two-day-trip to a famosa experiences..it was funny when lik-mr.sarcastic-bombed rica with intense sarcasm and humourity hahaxx..good job lik lolz=P btw, we then proceeded to the watch shop place thingy to do the jammin thang hehe^~^ well it was 24 bucks for 1 hour and we were liek wasting sum time there but it was quite fun where i get to noe one more fren who's a music fanatic like me and lik..this is the i third time i meet him but its like i noe him very well..mayb cuz its cuz i always hear bout him from me ol frens..well it was fancy meeting u samuel hehe=P and when he and lik got crazy playin umbrella by rihanna..they were liek so high o_o hehe..well then it started to drizzle a bit outside when we were done by 2.30..then we cycled to my house to 'lepak'..and fulfilling sam's desire of touching acoustic piano hehe..>: 3 well sorry samuel but i dun have money to buy a grand piano T.T plus there's no space to place one in my house..gomen~well if we get the chance maybe i can let you try my semi acoustic one next time..rememba to come o~..^.^..and lik, u gotta go practice ur maths..lolz..plus, stop the 'fkin,fkin' thang..tho i started it lolx..well then 2 hours passed by when we played and help lik do homework and chitchat,then it was time to go home..well too bad that i wasnt able to be with my grandparents who came from klang..haihz..well wuts done is done,plus,i can always go visit them at sundays..hehe..after three hours of playing 'persona3' at ps2 i had dinner-simple but hearty-hehe.then when nick-my 1st younger bro came back from tuition it was time to celebrate his birthday,well it was the day b4 yesterday but we werent able to make it..we had tonnes of fun and while watching a cantonese movie,which was bloody funny lmao..well then i continued a lil bit on the novel b4 i went to sleep.....and woke up today with a bloody headache............ouch..but neways i still played basketball cuz i dont wanna break a promise..well it seems that i made the right choice and my headaches gone..for now at least muhaha..well heres a sneak peek to the photos we took yesterday--^^--

HAPPY DAYS ^^

re'fill my emotions

well thx to the politicians, i feel so unsafe to go out o_o..well i guess maybe its a good thang that my trip was cancelled..lmao~cuz i have liek......bundles, stacks and loads of homewuk to do.. help me>.< wtf is the moral thang for T.T..so down rite now..cant draw..cant play cuz hand hurts..argh..haihz..i want thursday...T.T we-lik,kana,erica and me would be jammin off liek crazy and forget all bout the fkin moral thang..i seriously need time to waste..zz.okay enough with the complaints..share sth i enjoy with-the translated lyrics of 'memories of you' by yumi kawamura:

Voices of the wind and beads of light I let flow to you
I won't forget your gentle smile sadness hidden in your eyes
Even if wishing is painful, you gave me courage to stand up
So I'll go; we'll meet again when you awake in your dream

I hold faraway memories to my heart and sing

You protected this empty, wavering world with your own hands
So now just fold your wings and sleep peacefully
Enveloped in eternal tranquility, love through all eternity
Sleep within these hands, gently watching over you
I remember you, laughing, crying, getting angry
I'll never forget, ever, until my life is exhausted

From the intersection I heard a voice like yours
I turned and looked towards the sky, holding back my tears
Tomorrow, some day
I believe I'll see you again, and wander alone
On rainy nights, I keep waiting for a sunny morning

I won't forget the nights we ran through

In dazzling, shining moments we were all together
I spent them without realizing how precious they were
Now, to remember them fondly I will embrace the feeling
You were right there with me
Always always always you were smiling there beside me
Even if I lose you I'll get you back I will never leave you

You protected this empty, wavering world with your own hands
So now just fold your wings and sleep peacefully
Enveloped in eternal tranquility, love through all eternity
Sleep within these hands, gently watching over you
I remember you, laughing, crying, getting angry
I'll never forget, ever, until my life is exhausted

In dazzling, shining moments we were all together
I spent them without realizing how precious they were
Now, to remember them fondly I will embrace the feeling
You were right there with me
Always always always you were smiling there beside me
Even if I lose you, I'll get you back, I will never leave you

oh its so beautiful..maybe i'll go drawing after all =P tataxx^^

holiday-yeah,right-REAL relaxed

so many holiday homewuk???!! luckily i finished maths and add maths..hehe=P..but i have to do EIGHT more moral essays and TWO kerja amal to within this period..wut the hellxxxzzz..so stressed..all bcuz of that stupid old moral teach-pn n*rhana,yea THANKS a Bunch for making 5 of my essays lost..okay enough complaints.i'm goin to tasik kenyir for three days guys!!!hehe^^well wut can i say..okay i'll just post one of my early works done in the last year end holidays hehe i hope you guys can comment=)

the next one is done just recently during last week's pe..^^..hehe

guess i'll have to chill to really enjoy my trip..hope to get some inspiration^^ God bless..bye=P

i simply luv yui..muhaha..no,seriously

she's definitely my no 1 idol...tho not much ppl like japanese artists like i do so much, i'd still like to share this song+this movie.the movie is called 'taiyo no uta' which means 'a song to the sun',literally..thx to one of my classmates, i was able to find that this is the movie that yui acts in that i was searching 4 so long..thx benny^^and the theme song in this movie is called "good-bye days"by YUI. my fav. wanting to make me cry is easy ya know,juz give me a story or movie that is touching and the next second you'll realise that ur tissues are all used up.this is one of the ,most touching love story i've ever watched.its so beautiful..i strongly reccomend u guys to check it out..its about this gal who got an incurable (is there such a word?) disease where when she gets exposed to sunlight-uv light, she'll get all retarded then die..sorry to put this warning in the middle---spoilers*** so back to the topic, she grows up indoors and only goes out at night..then there this guy she likes-kinda a naive playful teenage guy that she secretly watches and has feeling towards.then the next part is the real thing so i dont wish to say it,please check it out..for fans of luv stories, u wont regret..i guarantee..it taught me to be brave..not physically brave, the spiritual mental kind of bravery..next, the song..the lyrics are very beautiful so i decided to post it here..^^..
~YUI - Good-bye Days
作詞: YUI 作曲: YUI
だからいま　会いにゆくそう決めたんだポケットの　この曲を君に聴かせたい
そっとヴォリュームを上げて確かめてみたよ
oh Good-bye days　いま変わる気がする昨日までに　so longかっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから~with you
片方の　イヤフォンを君に渡すゆっくりと　流れ込むこの瞬間
うまく愛せていますか?たまに迷うけど
oh Good-bye days　いま変わり始めた　胸の奥　alrightかっこよくない優しさがそばにあるから~with you
できれば　悲しい想いなんてしたくないでもやってくるでしょ?そのとき　笑顔で　Yeah hello!! my friend　なんてさ言えたならいいのに…
同じ唄を　口ずさむ時そばにいて　I wishかっこよくない優しさに会えてよかったよ
…Good-bye days

~translation:
So I’ll go to you now, I’ve made up my mind
I want to play you the song in my pocket

I quietly turned up the volume to make sure

Oh good-bye days
I feel like things are changing now
So long yesterday and before
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
~With you

I pass you one earphone
And in that moment, it plays slowly
I am I loving you right?

Sometimes I get confused

Oh good-bye days
Now what’s in my heart has begun to change, alright
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
~With you

I don’t want to have sad thoughts if I can help it
But they’re bound to come, right?
When they do, I’ll smile and say
Yeah hello! I hope I can call you My friend...
When we sing the same song
Be by my side, I wish
I’m glad I found that clumsy tenderness
...Good-bye days

thats all. gotta go sleep now..sports practice tomorrow.omg.0_0 ciaoz

-reborn-

hey guys, i've stopped bloggin? guess again..hehe~never thought i'd come back here @blogger again eh, lik? well, this time maybe i'll use it to post some of my artworks and some diary-keeping instead of using it to complain only like i did in my previous frenster bloggy.it was kinda boring and stupid..whew..enough looking back to the past..so, i've just trans-ed to sri kl this year and surprisingly it was a wise choice i first made in my life! thanks to my cuz sis jacinth who helped me and motivated me. im not sayin that its her that make me do this decision but she really helped me grow alot, mentally.sri kl is a good school that may be given the title of a 'school' unlike my previous school(dont get me wrong,lik).its just that i'm a person who likes to learn and i want a better learning experience.well,thx to that i've been able to meet 2 frens who enjoys drawing like i do so far..well now the 1st monthly test has ended and i'm so relieved cuz the atmosphere is always tense during exam period and i sure dont enjoy that..hehe.but i'm rather happy this time cuz i finally passed history, guys! tho its a bit easier than last yr's.oh well thats all for this time..maybe next time i'll get to the artworks..ciao^^