Quickie.

A short post to deliver my deepest wishes for SOME people.

Firstly, tomorrow's some guy's birthday.
Weird, how'd I forget who it is?

Oh yeah! Seh Sen! The one who lan-c me when going to Japan!
The one who claims himself the best looking!
The one who keeps on with his sarcasm with the gang! I'm the victim sometimes!

Anyways Happy 17th birthday dude! May your dreams come true, I mean, dream - you know who what I mean.

Nextly on 30th! The only super emo Chua!

The one who shared most of the best times in class, and out of class with the gang.
EMO GUY!
Well Happy 17th Birthday pal! And yeah. The same wish blah blah, hope you get to go out with her! Good Luck!

Last but not least, Miss Crazy: Amy Tee!

I don't know what to say. Might as much thank you for all the cool and awesome times you shared! And I'm still unhappy over your high score for it! You know what I mean.
Don't stress yourself and keep having fun like usual! Happy Sexy Seventeen! May your wildest dreams come true! I don't wanna know how wild but tell me if it comes true! ;)

That's all. Toodles.

Bridge--

This is gonna be a short post.

Just some simple update.

I am going to Taylor's ADP next year, and fortunately got the scholarship offered, notwithstanding the still EXPENSIVE fees! Going to US as soon as possible. Yeah, great. I wonder how my parents are going to pay the fees, how I love them now. Now I realize how important it is to age, to mature.

Not enough, I still have much to learn.
And urgh, this headache is totally bothering me.

Recently read a rare kind of book-where there are bad endings only..Ouch..That reminds me, I wanted to post something about resolutions, well maybe not now.

TIRED!! Read until 1.30 am last night! Amy, I think I got your disease! Cure please!

No complete coloured drawings yet. Just pencil-drawn. So none updated now.
Please, stay tuned.
Aight thats all for now. Ciao dudes and dudettes.

Rewind ;

Mood: Blogful*blogsome
Listening to: The Illusionary Patty-Ridge, Keep Breathing, tears
Reading: The Alexandria Link
Watching: None
Playing: None
Drawing: Personal Characters

Starting this blogpost taught me to appreciate my ability to remember and savour the bittersweet taste of memories. Of 5 Beta. Thinking of our last high school days somewhat taught me that everything around me, is my education.

Never I had thanked my classmates for all that, and for it I apologize. And thank you all of you, for you bring me to know the colors of life, notwithstanding the fact that i was a plain ol' black and white sketch.

The year started with a blur if I remembered clearly. How ironic. Hehe.
And I made friends out of blur. How blur is my memory, but I am thankful that I can still have memory, though not as strong as children's. Nostalgia is still one of my best mood swings though.

Teachers are just around me the whole time, teachers of LIFE.

Amy taught me to be sociable. One may address me as her bestie but to me, there's too much in common that I really hope us to be siblings, her the ELDER one, tho she's younger. She's the kind of person that mixes around, without much doubt and with her tremendous amount of experience (Amy, thank me for this and yes, it's a compliment) in social stuff, she'd probably make the best friend- of everyone. Wipe that smirk of your face,Amy! And yeah, did I mention her level of sarcasm? Wow, a competitor for liks!

And for being you, Amy, I thank you. And for willing to be a friend to an antisocial person.XD

EJ taught me that I'm not the only one's with problems and I'm not the only one who CAN go emo. Shame of me, being his cousin all these years, this year is when I really see his pain, in parallel to mine. But of course, he HAS happy moments and I am utterly butterly happy to be there for him. Honest. Frankly speaking, there are times where he irritates me with his emo power, but of course that is my subconciousness playing with me. He is quite you call the 'perfectionists' and i am pretty much one of them. I hope that going out there, the vast life our world is offering, EJ will continue to shine in academics, and of course light up his darkness inside, like I try to mine right now.

And for being you, EJ, I thank you. And for willing to continue to share all the moments. Anime moments too.

Elise taught me to be a strong person when you find yourself bound in the dangerous yet delicious world of love. And wow, she's a bright gal there. I heard she has no tuitions. And one thing I enjoy the most about her is when we complain about our little brothers! Such times are quite memorable, yet funny. She is definitely the weirdest monitor! Pss, *whisper whisper*she can't remember the teachers' names! Just kidding alright! She's one responsible monitor. And yeah, thanks for showing me breaking dawn! NOT! Argh! I'll get the whole set someday...you'll see.

And for being you, Elise, I thank you. And for willing to pass up my books. =p

*paragraph deleted due request*

And for being you, Seh Sen, I thank you. And for letting me see some cute gals. =p

Seek Sean taught me to be such a Soul Eater fan. Haha, still remembering when we kept talking bout Soul Eater every tuesday waiting for the bus. And yeah, thanks for all the protection, y'know, I feel you're like our big brother, always taking care of us. Thanks ya. And I am NOT JEALOUS that you went to Japan and watched SOUL EATER THE MOVIE!(yeah right.) Argh!

And for being you, Seek Sean, I thank you. And for being there for me in bad and good times.

Chua taught me that there are so many common interests we both have. He is definitely the finest friend back then, but alas, I've sense him changing. But my friend, please don't give in to the shadows, for you are potent in the bright. Good luck and I will remember that you and I crossed paths. Love yourself, pal.

And for being you, Chua, I thank you. And for sticking round to enjoy the best of times with me.(And I'll never forget how we both laughed at Amy when she dropped the popcorn XP)

There are so many people I want to thank but alas, with the current speed of my typing I might never follow up with my thoughts. But everyone in Beta, you have my thanks. Thanks for the memories. I can never guarantee I'll never forget you,but one thing I assure you, that I will never ever WANT to forget you all.

Special thanks here:

To my non-Beta bestest friend ever, who never hesitated to be my friend, Liks. Hanging out with you was utterly fun, but I sensed that you have not been able to cope with my mood-swing-talks, or identify them I guess, though you are doing the best among all to cope with it, now that no one can deal with it. That's why people stamp me as EMO-antisocial guy.

I am utterly grateful that fate has brought me to you. As a best friend that is. So much in common we have, but alas, we cannot have the little brother talk cuz you're the younger one, so I suppose that you have a grudge on me for being eldest? Just kidding. I can't thank you enough. I have to admit that there are times I have to hate you, but what gives? I can't believe I'm getting more and more emotional now, I feel like bursting out of tears now, but I am a strong kid now. Yes I am, cuz you taught me to be one. And you taught me how to appreciate. And the joy of life I've found it through you, half-frankly speaking. Well, I guess I'll miss you when I go overseas back to my birthplace to study. I oughta, yknow, cuz you know me, how I cant stand Banting.

And for being you, Liks, I thank you. And I can't thank you enough. And yeah, we're brothers now, and I'm younger, try to cope with me.haha.

Another friend of mine:

Erica taught me how to be a friend. She's kinda good a friend. Very good indeed. But I can never teach her to love herself enough. We're pretty much best friends, and now there's a barrier between us. Bringing myself back to memories with her, I feel that she's such a bright girl. God, why did everyone have to fall in to darkness? I guess that's human nature, that everyone has to face their own darkness eventually. Erica, I want you to know I have not changed, not at least too much to push you away as a friend, so why are you keeping it all to yourself. I want you to know I'm there for you, but you hav to be aware of kazjun's moodswings. Sorry bout that. No escaping that. Just soar free with your potential, galfren. You can do it. I don't just THINK so, I KNOW so.

And for being you, Erica, I thank you. And I still don't like Fahrenheit!

But closing this post taught me, not to dwell in the past. Memories are sweet, but thats all they are, ya? And I live in Banting fyi! Alright, time to move on! Good luck everyone, with a smile from me. =D

Am I free?-Imprisoning myself-

It has been a while since I've exploded.
And how I hate weird dreams.

Weird dreams+ Car horn to wake you up= headache+ Sudden heart leap

How I hate being human sometimes, and how I hate humans.
I don't know. I ain't knowin' nothing.

Sometimes I feel like blowing up all cover and just be myself.
A lazy, useless, arsehole.
ASS! And that reminds of me, ASS, ASS-U-ME
Ass in front of you and me, 'assumption', something humans are good and making, and always never fail to blow me up!

I mean, you all fuck me up! Stop making assumptions! (that means I've been fucking myself up all the way) And all these thinking makes me wanna puke! ALL THE WAY TO DEATH.

I figured maybe that's why I've been obsessed, by books and stories, imaginary worlds.
I just have to keep refilling with hope, notwithstanding the fact that it the well of it in my heart will eventually dry up.

Its hard sticking in the middle, desiring isolation but yet refraining from loneliness. Something that has always been in my heart will never just leave like that, and i know very well myself. (not like anyone's understand-not at least in Banting, or Klang)

Yeah, I'm feeling better now, and illusion satisfying enough.
And yeah, that's it, I just need to build myself up-all the courage, gather it; all the wisdom, pick 'em up; all the tolerance, learn them; and of course all the desires, suppress them.

I've learned lots, but not enough. I must never be satisfied, no way.
Fate, will you join me on my side?

And I will always await your reply, never more patience.

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Now playing: Shihoko Hirata - Never More
via FoxyTunes

TM NET are for those PIGS and I SO DO NOT DESERVE IT!

Mood: Flat
Listening to: The Corner of Memories, Never More
Reading: Tall, Dark and Handsome by Nisha Minhas
Watching: -
Playing: P4 (2x round)

Most of them are most probably now blogging (or after accounts tomorrow) like this:

WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!~~~

SPM is over~~

Boring...

Same here but in a different way:

YES! I don't have to wake up at 5.00 and eat with a sleepy-full tummy and go to school for waste of time in the hall sleeping anymore!!!

WOOHOOO~ No more lousy lameo shitty crappy Malaysian history!

No more USELESS moral craps for non-MUSLIMS for me anymore!

No more lazy, stupid and bitchy moral teachers! And did I mention Lazy, laZy, and LAyzeEE?

No more misleading lousy EXAMS! No more misleading Chemistry knowlege from our MinistrEE of Edu. ! Yes, and more experiments OUTSIDE OF HIGH SCHOOLS OF OURS!

And more challenging Maths & Calculus!

SPM is over for a while and I have finally finished the toppings of my most recent artwork. And this one's a distinct style from my previous works (click to enlarge):

Some of my mates, such as EJ and Seek Sean-alright, only EJ and Seek Sean, knows about Persona series, from Persona 3&4 to Persona -trinity soul- anime series(which sucked).

Persona is the manifestation of the character's mind. Therefore reflecting one's inner self, inner critic, inner character, inner personalities, or whatever-you-call-them. And yeah, i forgot, PERSONA 4 ROX! Best character designs and persona designs from uh, that guy, again (dunno his name XD) He's kinda new to me, and his drawing is where I develop my own style from.

Then, the wildest idea flashed thru my mind when having a conversation with EJ n Sean, creating personae. This is my persona, Metzl. I created it, with a purpose of reminding of my inner personality and to psyche myself up sometimes. It can also serve for something else, like, uh,..............wait, uh, aight, to keep you reminded of something bitter. Wait, that's not good, right?

LOL so anyone wishing their personae done my yours truly, moi, then tell me along with your requests to my email, hongshu2@hotmail.com and I'll deliver you a voila. (Hoping to get a tres bien from you *smirk*)

ITS F.O.C.! (of course it is)

Jya,matta.

Deviant for the last day before D-day=BM, SJ

Finally, I've done it =D
Tomorrow's BM already, urgh..



ori char: mizuno von ciel by ~forevereuphoria on deviantART


ori char: akira-chan by ~forevereuphoria on deviantART

Jya, ganbateh ne~ SPM!

OEKAKI=er

Something to extinguish your starving urge of my drawings..

I can't believe I'm oekaki-ing...

My first and worst oekaki (on Tegaki E):

SPM drawing near, so as to make me feel so uneasy.. urgh..

Jya, mata ne=

Bubbly tired.0ooO0oo0.

Well I accidentally read Lik Wei's long long tag and HAPPENED to have ample free time, so...

THE SELF
[01] Name: Andre Tan Hong Shu
[02] Nickname: Andre, Kazjun, Add Maths freak, Galfren, Dre
[03] Married: Yeah right...
[04] Zodiac Sign: Aries
[05] Gender: Male
[06] Age: 16 going to 17 in December.
[07] High School: Form 1-4 MES, Form 5 Sri KL
[08] University: Not so fast man..
[09] Height: 160 something..shorty
[10] Weight: 70 something kg, super fat. Biasalah =D
[11] Do you like yourself: Depends on my mood.
[12] Piercings: NO WAY. Its UNCOOL.
[13] Right or left: Right but I wanna be both..Maybe I’d find time to train.
[14] Are you a freak: Guess so.. Check out my nick.
[15] Hair: Black. I thinked of dyeing it to white D= haha
[16] Skin: Fair, hairy-which annoys me, kinda.
[17] Allergic: DUST!! Fur. People talking loudly like in pasar.
[18] What are you doing now: ?
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Whatever I favour.
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Whatever.

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: Parents.
[22] Siblings(included you): Tiga.
[23] Eldest: Ore ga.
[24] Youngest: Fatty.
[25] Love/hate your family: Depends on my mood=P

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: Well………………………………dunno.
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Uh…..
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: Secret, duh.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: One-way only.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Secretly.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Yeah, it’s kinda like a joke.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: No chance.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: I wish I had the chance.
[34] Ever argue with your other half: These questions are making me desperate.
[35] You with your other half since: Not yet k?
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: Dunno, might be both, frankly speaking I love puppies more than human, or rabbits, I could be a zoophiliac. Muhahaha.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: Uh, enough of it.
[38] You and your other half in which stage: Haiyo, dah cakap tak de lo.
[39] You woo-ed her/him or he/she woo you: dunno.
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: I’d call that a fantasy, thank you.

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: Lik Pin, I guess. EJ and Shen are cousins, so not considered XD Kinda antisocial huh?
[42] Your first enemy: Too many enemies, too busy to remember.
[43] The friend you love the most: My rabbit.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): Dunno.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: Physically, none. Character then, all are beautiful lar. Mostly d=
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: Physically, dunno. Character, I would go for…uh, all lar….
[47] The kind of girl/woman you hate the most: Fakers. Intolerant. LOUD. Immoral. Ungrateful.
[48] The kind of boy/man you hate the most: Same as above.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Well,…
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: Like?
[51] If your friend backstab you: It’s normal. I don’t give a damn.
[52] If your friend betray you: They wouldn’t dare.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: Thank him for approving of my taste =D
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: Uh…..
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: I’m emo but not so sesat yet. He’s the last choice. I’d fall in love with my rabbit first. =D

THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: Maybe. They say so but I don’t think so.
[57] You always finish your homeworks/assignments: Depends.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Mr Chia, Mr Lee, Mrs Koh, Puan Rosila, Mr Stephen.
[59] Always late to school/college: Neva, unless emergency.
[60] Your class: I would write a storybook out of this class. 5 B 4 life =D
[61] You love your seniors: When I was in form 1-3 lar..Like my cousin Amelia, then there’s the greatest head prefects-Elangor, Vivasvan. Then others like Esther, Kheng Hoe, Haw Ping, Sian Loong, Wan Xin, they allll rocked =D
[62] Senior who you love the most: Amelia =D I still look up to you now tho ure in Aussie now =D
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Better than good, “we’re like a dysfunctional family” said Anisha.
[64] Excellent result classmate: Watashi, Azim, EJ……….
[65] Laziest classmate: CMD, Charles.

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: Save the world while living to their most extents.
[67] Stupid people: Baka and still wanna act smart.
[68] Good looking people: I need to look, and analyse =D
[69] Ugly people: People with despicable personalities.[70] Funny people: Great humour. I take all kinds of them =D
[71] Cute people: Like someone, that can make you head over heels for them.
[72] Bad people: Stupid and ugly.
[73] Honest people: Yeah right…they’re extinct kay?
[74] Acting people: Cannot fake through my eyes, I have vulture eyes =D
[75] You are what kind of people: Macam-macam ada. Hehe.

THE PREFER
[76] Lips or eyes: Both. Lips with just the right size-kissable, eyes just nice to fit.
[77] Hugs or kisses: Together ;P
[78] Shorter or taller: Depends.
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Mix of both.
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Both.
[81] Listener or talker: A mix of both.
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic.
[83] Good wife or Good mother: Both is best.


THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: I dunno if I can. I aim, uh, 25.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3 to 5.
[86] Career: Engineer, I hope.
[87] Salary: Anything.
[88] Retirement age: Neva. I work for the world.
[89] Properties value: Anything.
[90] Wishes: That all my wishes come true. OOooI’m so bad =D

Nobody's Home!!

I have a habit of reading before hitting the hay, that is, having a bedside storybook.
From Norwegian Wood, to Kafka on the Shore, to A Wild Sheep Chase.

Now, guess what? It has become the Form 5 Sejarah textbook.
Well, at least AT LEAST I read a few pages from it before my mind went blank last night.
And I went drawing all night. Wouldnt want to miss the creative time.

FYI, by creative time I meant around 2200 hours. Surveys show that MOST humans are found most creative at this time and the worst time is around 1600 hours.

So, uh, my drawings are still not ready for posting yet, so stay tuned.
Don't worry, it won't take long since I can't concentrate on Sejarah. I suck, man.

So lost..I JUST WANNA JAM AFTER SPM!!!!!!~
Well maybe not.. I'm just having difficulty squeezing out my creativity.
GOT STUCK after only 4 boxes of manga.
T.T

Aight now now. I still have to study WHEN THE MOOD COMES =D
Brief enough.

kazjun '08

grad

Tagmania.

Soundtrack: Silence of my heart
Mood: Empty

OK guys I'm doing a three in one post so it's gonna get a bit messy..

TAG 1:
(Tagged by Lik Wei)

RULES:
- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you.
- Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
- Tag 5 people.

Ore wa, DECEMBER desu:
Loyal and generous.
Sexy.(no comment =D)
Patriotic. (nice one.)
Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious.
Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with.
Loves to socialize. (with certain exceptions tho)
Loves praises. (duh)
Loves attention. (duh!)
Loves to be loved. (like, DUH!) (...)
Honest and trustworthy. (compare to next point)
Not pretending.
Short tempered.
Changing personality.
Not egotistic.
Takes high pride in oneself. dunno.
Hates restrictions. sometimes.
Loves to joke.
Good sense of humor. ^^;;

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.



MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.



APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.



MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.



JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.



JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.



AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.



SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.



OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.



NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.



DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.



I tag:
~Likpin
~Amy
~Elise

~EJ

~Erica

TAG 2:

(Tagged by many people, and it's kinda...yknow...stupid)

1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture.
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post these instructions with your picture.

5. Tag 5 people to do this.

Well it did say unedited so, its horizontal lor.

I tag: EJ, Elise, Amy, who else? everyone else had done it XD

Post 3:

I see that no one had updated bout last night, graduation.. guess all are crying now.

It was fabulous, and to be continued in next post. Pictures, y'know how they suck in blogger text edittor..

To all my frens, thanks 4 the nite.=D

福音を広める - Spreading the Gospel

Soundtrack:My Wish_Rascal Flatts & Collide_Howie Day

Mood:Forwarded+Motivated+Light=.=?

Heyall! Back again with a euphoric mood. =D Friday's graduation day man. Hoping to get in for performance^^
Something great happened today,hehe. Well I managed to share my stuff of the previous art exhibition which i took part in last month to my friends. And i told them of the next exhibition, which will be held next year, and this time it's gonna be nationwide =D

Well, surprisingly, Seh Sen, who has never had obvious liking of drawing, wanted to join it, great news. I was truly happy. Not just him, but even EJ and Seek Sean drew along as Chern Shyen and I guide Seh Sen thru his "arduous" work of first portrait drawing this year =D

It turned out really great although he has only finished halfway.

As I said, I was truly happy, cuz having to share the joy of drawing has been my wish. I hope more Malaysians get to know, like and love art. It is actually a very powerful thing/activity/hobby/stuff/whatever-you-call-them.

I am going to exhibit some works of my created characters in my new style- under deeeeeep liking of Persona 4 gameplay.

LOVE P4=D

Maybe I'm posting them here after I finish them.. Still halfway =D

So everyone in Malaysia, let's embrace the joy of drawing!!
绚·和哉 '08

今はどうですか？

Soundtrack: What About Now _ Chris Daughtry

Mood: Nervous

Tomorrow's it now. The audition for Graduation Dinner (next friday).
Lucky no piano, if not I have to frown over making a choice of solo-ing or not.
Well, I guess that leaves audition for singing What About Now by us- Anisha, Amy, Chua and I.

Anisha's playing the guitar cuz there's no piano and that leaves another worry gone. =D
Now I just have to concentrate on chilling, chill chill CHILLL...... gggggggggggg..... damn nervous weh...and sing it with full emotions !!

What about now, what about today, what if ure making me all that i was meant to be...

Great.. Its making me more nervous.

Man, let's change the topic. Hmm..well I guess no harm reporting on my trial results =D
Happy to get improvement in certain subjects as well as sad to hear imperfection from some...

Let's just start of with my sorrow first =D
1. Imperfections from Maths:
:::::99% again. Mistake in probability stuff. Screwmyselfforthat!!!!!!!!!:::::::::

2. SUPER DUPER IMPERFECTION from Add Maths:
:::::From 98% last time >>97%!!!!!!!! fuck.:::::
:::::DAMN F**KIN MISTAKE 1>> 22 divide by -11 = -1~ stupid fuckshit
:::::^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^2>> 2 radian = 180/pi ~super stupid, missing 2
:::::^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^3>> volume generated by curve only>>i did whole area..+_+

3. Biology paper 1: 30 something only. way lousy than last time. I thought I did my best T.T

4. BM: 68%......I DID MY BEST!!!!!!!! Or at least it seemed so.

OK now on to good stuffs:

1. Sejarah: 61% great!!!! first time got B without coursework =D Guess my hard work paid of QUITE well... =D

2. MORAL: I can't believe I got 63%!!!! I thought it'd be another big fat F...Xo>>thanks a lot to my cuz bro- Shen =D Thanks a lot !!

3. Chemistry: Slight improvement d= from 80 sth>>91% =D
>>>though some mistakes were pretty stupid.esp:paper one....
>>>only question wrong: find oxidation number for oxygen in S2O3(2-), and fuck, i did +2 cuz din read properly...

Physics damn blur, so I din care much...


So, I guess that's the gist of it.
Well. WHAT ABOUT NOW ~~~~~

back to basics

Soundtrack: Sunny Day, Koibumi, Reset

Mood: Disturbed

I am all confused now. Man, I never thought of seriously working out this problem, and I thought it was easy to work out but, now I am totally beat by the formula.

C=2πr

A=πr^2

Currently looking like hell for info to solve this knot. Hard one.

Anyone knows why is it that?
Argh..
I am blogging as searching for answers.

Miracle, I need you.

Circles are wonderful, perfect, but never noticed that it was such a devastating item.
And π HAD to be an irrational number. Man. Which means its not 22/7? Owh.

=after arduous reading=
I finally understand what is pi now. But why 2πr?
Man.

π is actually the ratio of the circumference of a circle to its diameter,that is, C/d.
And there are numerous attempts to calculate the value of π up to decimals, up to trillions.

And, not a single reccurence had occured. It is an irrational number, WTF.
Such rational shape with an irrational part of it, how ironic.

Well, I guess no harm of celebrating Pi Day =D next year maybe. Its on March 14 at 1:59:26 p.m =D
Have a π pie X0

Guess I'll just forget about getting to understand that two formulae.
Man. Screw it.

All hail π~

Off with misery.

Sunny Day

Soundtrack: Sunny Day_藤木一惠

Mood: Thoughtful

Went out with a bunch of great friends today to Sunway Pyramid.
Thanks to EJ, Sean, Benny, Seh Sen, Sam, Sik Weng and Shien Hong.

We had a lot of fun then.
And watched a Jap named "Accuracy of Death" starring Takashi Hanashiro.
To be honest the choice was just in the hands of chance. Brilliant choice.
I want to watch it again and again.

Clouds in the shallow cavity of my heart had cleared.
Yes, a sunny day.
I've learned a lot. Something sufficient to make a big change in my life.
I will never hold back anymore.
Further details unavailable cuz I'm out of words now, just drowning in my feelings.

Of course a wonderful movie has a wonderful song.
It is titled "Sunny Day".
I'm putting it on the jukebox over there. Enjoy.

etichetta

Soundtrack: 恋文 Every Little Thing

Mood: holiday-ish

=TAGGED BY ELISE CHO PUI MUN=
~go visit her blog @ EXITS~
Thanks for tagging hehe.


1.What is the relationship of you and her?
>>She is my monitor in class.
>>A blog friend who's crazy over blogging.
>>We are from the same clan of the CAMWHORES
>>We are bffs of 5 beta =D

2. Your 5 impressions towards her.
>>Brave to love.
>>Friendly and easy to approach.
>>Faithful blogger like me =P
>>Sometimes EMO like me.
>>Forgetful.

3. The most memorable things she has done for you.
>>Talked to me, been my blog friend, most importantly took out BREAKING DAWN in front of me!! Argh..Haha..

4. The most memorable thing she had say to you.
>>"Andre, don't emo!"

5. If she becomes your lover, you will...
>>Uh, she has a boyfriend, fyi. Uh, just to answer the question, I'll go with - go out with her lar.

6. -question lost-

7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...
>>Add Maths & emo-tolerance.

8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
>>Buying all of my favourite books to tease me =/

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is...
>>Talk bout stuffs we both like all day, for example, novels & music. Not to mention how to emo more XD

10. The overall impression of her is...
>>A teenage girl. Duh...

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
>>I don't know. I don't care.

12. The character you like of yourself is...
>>Logical and sentimental at the right times.

13. On contrary, the character you hate for yourself is...
>>Sometimes too logical. Sometimes too sentimental, = E.M.O.

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is...
>>Me with a better logic and a better way with words.

15. For the people who like and care about you, say something to them.
>>Hi. Stay strong. Stick together, stink together. Don't give up making choices. Running away is never an option. Always love yall. Thanks for everything you guys done, not just for me, but for yourselves too.

16. 10 friends to tag:
1>>Amy
2>>Elise (Back to you =D)
3>>EJ
4>>Liks
5>>Erica
6>>Samuel
7>>Lik Wei
8>>Amirah
9>>Jun Sean
10>>Tze Yuh

17. Who is no2 having a relationship with?
>>Some guy from outside our school. That's all I know.

18. Is no3 a male or a female?
>>Male. Duh.

19. If no7 and no10 were together, would it be a good thing?
>>Uh, they're already friends. If you mean getting TOGETHER together, then NO WAY!

20. How about no5 and no8?
>>Why is it such gross coincidence? NO WAY..

21. What is no1 studying about?
>>She's reading manga for now =D

22. Is no4 single?
>>Yep. Definitely.

23. Say something about no6?
>>ROXXX to the core =D

-+=owari=+-

pause

Soundtrack: Sayounara, Aarigatou- Natsukawa Rimi
Mood: Weirdly empty

Currently really crazy about this new author I came across-Haruki Murakami.
Simply wanting all his works now. Translated of course.

I just finished one of his works "Norwegian Wood".
About the story: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norwegian_Wood_(novel)

He's the style I'm looking for, to pursue my own dreams of writing novels.

His astounding way of putting thoughts, imaginations into words stirs the emotions out of me and indeed captured 100% of interest. Not to mention his sense of humour, always funny, yet sensible as the timing is so perfect.

I couldn't resist the moment I reached home and started reading all the way through the end of it. But I didn't want it to end, just yet. I've always hated endings, they drain something from my heart, leaving an untraced weird emptiness.

Just like how the trials ended. It was all different, it's something you don't get all year eh? Some people made different jokes, some people smiled more (apart from me), some people frown more and get all tracks on their faces, some can even play around more. It's a beautiful event, a DIFFERENT view, and ending just came swishing through. I just can't bear to understand the emptiness I feel from it. Plus, we even get holidays for it, now. I'll miss 5 beta for a week.

Wouldn't it feel better, I mean having school after trials for one week, I mean, trials been pulling us apart in certain ways, maybe it would be better if we had one more week to play and enjoy classes together in class before parting out to our relaxing holidays?

AWKWARD-- Why am I saying all this? Hell. Well I still have to gear up and get ready for the fun of holidays, adapt to it! Play like siao and talk like siao and just have fun, lots of 'em.

Plans: tomorrow basketball!! sunday ktv!!! ~blank~to be filled up later...

Btw I am so worked up I can't wait to buy other books from my newly adored author.
ESPECIALLY: -Kafka on the Shore
-The Wind-up Bird Chronicle

Intrigued and totally amused by the beautiful work of Norwegian Wood,

I CAN_NOT WAIIITTTTTT~~~~~~!!!

I wish to quote some snippets from the story, for the one, and for my beloved friendlies.

"You're really cute, so cute that the mountains crumble and the oceans dry up."

"I like you a lot."

"How much is a lot?"

"Like a spring bear."

"What's that all about? A spring bear."

"You're walking through a field all by yourself one day in spring, and this sweet little bear cub with velvet fur and shiny eyes comes walking along. And he says to you, 'Hi there, little lady. Want to tumble with me?' So you and the bear cub spend the whole day in each other's arms, tumbling down the clover-covered hill. Nice, huh?"

Doctor:"Wow, that's some short skirt you're wearing!"

"Nice, huh?"

"What do you do on stairways?"

"Nothing special, I let it all hang out."The nurse chuckled behind the doctor.

"Incredible. You oughta come and let us open your head one of these days to see what's going on in there. Do me a favour and use the lifts while you're still in the hospital. I can't afford to have any more patients. I'm way too busy as it is."

Owh, I'm gonna reread it after i get Kafka on the Shore!! @@

DESIRES>>

Well, that pretty much summarises my inspiration today. Tired.
Rumors say that Norwegian Wood would be out as film in 2010!!

MORE DESIRES>>

Okay, enough. Thats the gist of it.
Jyaa ne {@,,,#}"

edge of trials, edge of 5 beta life

Music: humming sound from computer

Mood: jumbled up

Owh, its odd, now I feel so down. I had always wanted to blog my inspirations but my timing aren't just right.

~"We are normal, because we know that we are not normal,"~

Norwegian Wood

Whew, just some info update, today was physics, and it is the first time that I find it harder than devastating biology. Possible reasons are:

1-Couldn't concentrate-private emotional problem. (But I am proud to say I did not emo.)

2-Couldn't concentrate-Slept late reading Norwegian Wood

3-Couldn't concentrate-There was this screeching sound in the hall--shaddup lah!

4-Couldn't concentrate-Kept thinking about ...

5-Couldn't concentrate-Its cold in there...

6-Couldn't concentrate-Brain's been acting weird lately

7-Couldn't concentrate-Sprained foot hurts.

8-Couldn't concentrate-Kept thinking about ...

9-I'm stuck in the midst of life.

Reading seems to be the only way to let me calm down now. Argh.

Btw, its a great book. Norwegian Wood. Despite the open-ness bout free sex, its GREAT.

I got addicted.

Haih, I just need to train my timing. Or jot down my thinking anytime.

I feel like crying a second time now. Just need to release. Mungkin perlukan pencetus aje.

I'll be OK.

Its gonna be the holidays, and after that, I think many people would skip school.

Will you still be there?

Well I'm sure to go to school everyday now. I don't want to lose the last days in 5beta. In sri kl. In high school. As an adolscent.

All hail my life. I worship beauty of mother earth.

Jya, sayounara-

suki desu.

Music: Style- Kana Nishino

Mood: Euphoric

Yep, that is exactly wut it looks like liks. People don't just tend to copy you, they copy ur bro XD Notice the top right portion* (kinda reminds me of dA now...)

-Poetic mode now-

People, please do enjoy this piece of lyric. Beautifully written.

It’s beginning now

What kind of future waits for us

If I knock on the door that entwines us together?

As we’re growing, what we’re searching for

Is a perfect style

Someday, like gears turning

Everything will fall into place

God, if you’re there, listen to me

You have to watch over these moments, forever

these days we can never repeat

So just for a little while longer

I always want to be a kid

There are many boys and girls

Hiding behind in this world and dreaming

And that’s my story

Today the twilight is diminishing

What just keeps leaving?

I can hear your approaching footsteps

You hold and close many everyday lives

The night sky isn’t that bad

As the planet shines with the perfect background

God, are you listening to the Happy Song

I’m recording for the permanant preservation

Take 1, 2,..FOR YOU!

Now after a little more

I want to sing loudly

Even though your hair is being pulled

You’re thinking it’s faint

Everyday life flows, lala the melody will be on the musical scale

This world is black or white

Give meaning to each and every moment, paint my life

It doesn’t give any ambiguity to the grey ‘3D’

That’s the usual platitude of adults

God, if you’re there, listen to me

You have to watch over these moments, forever

these days we can never repeat

So just for a little while longer

I always want to be a kid

Just like Peter Pan

In morning light of this world

You’ll wake up All right?

beautiful, expressive.

whew, just finished chemistry today, (hehe), I'm laughing again =D

Easy cheesy the paper was.

But sigh, tomorrow is bio, stress.

I can't concentrate now,

just because you smiled.

and then its stuck in my mind now.

bye for now.

60th anni-ur head-versary

This following week is the second week of the not-so-seemingly-arduous spm trial exams.

Tomorrow will be add maths so i am here-oops sorry i mean-YET i am here blogging.

XD

kepala otak kau:: ::
this is the 60th post sejak ku buka blog ini tau?
jadi buat lah syok syok sendiri.
-lame-

60 stuff i like about add maths:
1. I like add maths.
2. I prefer add maths to maths.
3. I have a liking towards add maths.
4. I love add maths.
5. Add maths loves me too.
6. Add maths likes me.
7. My favourite pasttime is doing add maths.
8. I love doing add maths.
9. Ok this is hard. Let's skip.
.
.
.
.
......
.....
...........
59. Add Maths wa, daisuki desu yo =D
60. Add Maths is easy, and easy to make mistakes =D

All done.
Wut a lame post?

`tak de la, semua same je, lame lame...`
`ape kaucakap? nak makan tumbuk ku ke? tak tau mati?`
`mari la! sui pa sui? kok ji ah?`
`fuk9 u ah, u bo ji lah, XXY sindrom ke? Nak makan tindak balas kalium dengan air liur kau?`
`wat larrrrr? wat the fuck u talking?!! saye fail kimia and boilogi lar, lame. ape kata kau makan graf y=punca kuasa dua x ku? har?`
`eat this! 3+3=9! pro kan?`
`har and u pass add maths ar? wat the fuck...then bow down you ***** cuz i'm king now.`
`diam lar. kepala otak maukah? makan Tamadun Mesopotamia,Hammurabi wutever wutever stupid shit.`
`lame lar. cut it off.`

-end of lameness-

off practicing add maths again, ciao~

a freak like me

I personally prefer a freak likes me.
I had always been aware that I am not the only one suffering from emotional distress signals.
But it had been hard to just make it all out in words.

Words, I have never been good enough with them.
Let's go over to tzeyuh's post of 1 + 1 = 2 ?
I find similarities. You are not the only failure, same here, a lot. Except for law, I know nothing bout law.

Let's now go to likpin's post of Disaster!
I find similarities. Though I don't watch football, totally, I sense the familiar disappointment.
Which I have been always going through, or more accurately, trying to go through.

Many similarities I've found in the blog I've always been afraid to read.
Ej's post of Borned To Be Alone~ Der Wille zur Macht
Yes, yes. I've always admired your way of putting those thoughts into words, you are lucky to have the ability to express yourself. I'm totally envious.
Yes, of course. The Banting trend of forgetting people, I'm the opposite, I'd rather people forget me, just too used to it.
And of course I want to be like you, being able to express. People are deformed. Physically normal people are deformed, happy people are those who can treat them like normal normal people.

I want to be on that side. But I know no way. Me and my fantasies.
I am what people call abnormal, abomination, byproduct, weird, awkward, unacceptable.
Forget it. I CAN be normal, just the matter of fact that ITS HARD FOR ME.

You and I are both sensitive people, I am the over- type.
SOMETIMES Ej, it's just simply blissful to just be a dense person, y'know, like, acting stupid, or preferably BE stupid.

I'm just urging to let out all that stupendous amount of lameness and abnormality.

Fuck it. I find that I'm really dependent of my novels and headphones to keep me a smile, fading so hastily, like a drop of dew on the edge of a grass. Vapourised by the heat of summer.

Btw, I'm just dying to read all of Haruki Murakami's translated works, I've just read to halfway one of them, titled Norwegian Wood. Love it. Sad, but indeed such closeness and relativeness to our lives. Splendid writing. I ain't stoppin. It's gonna make me fail my Sejarah and Moral tomorrow.OWH! MORAL SHIT CRAP SHIT SHIT SHIT CRAP!!~~ HOLY MHOLY FATHER JESUS IN HEAVEN HELP ME WITH MY FREAKING MORAL INTOLERATION!

I have to go now, now that I have a lot of work to do - memorising nilais.

_toodles__

she's back =D

she makes me laugh so badly =D

Let's get outta this.

Woohoo! My e mail has lotsa junks! Garage sale, anyone?

Ok, this is the stuff, well, I received a number of mails that are not, of course, of good intentions.
One of them says stop eating sushi and another one says japanese people eat foetus.

Now, the first person I would critic is Ms. Erica Yen aka. hyperactive gal.
Y'know what? I'd just say this, 谣言止于智者。

Both e mails were criticising, obviously Japan. Well, to some people who don't think, or use their logics first before forwarding, what I wanna say is, please use your brain, your mom gave it to you so put it to proper use. Fyi, Japan is currently (well not so current) having some conflict with Korea, details I don't know, so, like duh, Korea must defend itself right? SOME are ""PATRIOTIC"" so they even spread their pengaruh to other nations thru the cyber world.

I may seem idiotic, but those who believe without analysing are none other than imbeciles.

For pictures, there are (like duh) very advanced programs that can do it. In the passages, they even used so much reverse psychosis or whatever-you-call-them. Don't be a victim.

WE- wise people must not be fooled by these kind of stuff, moreover, by our own leaders.
Y'know what? I heard from EJ, that our second prime minister was an evil genius.

Sometimes being patriotic isn't just about loving your country. It's about NOT letting your country falling into false hands of evil. And ego.

ANALYSE! people! And yeah, great leaders DO! They don't just promise, say, promise, say say say, critic only.

I'm sick of being a citizen, where we have to just get sandwiched in and/or become victims of this political stuffs.

I support world peace. One world. One utopia. One gaia.

Let's get outta this.

kazjun '08洵

Trial Season

I've always been a fan of Ikimono Gakari.
Sharing something, I'm in love of, or perhaps depending on.



It's September,
Already.

I feel uneasy, yet so dramatic and emotional.
Damn, my brain's nor working I guess. Everything's blur, unclear.

Existence. What is it? I'm simply confused yet afraid.
Why can't you be here with me for it?

I can't do this alone.
I'm all alone.

All my dreams are crushed now.
Well never mind, the end is coming soon.
Goodbye.

How could you?
Why did you took my heart out? Yet leaving me with emptiness.
I don't want that, I dunno how to face that.

Simple reality, yet complex emotions and problems arise.
This is the nature of my existence?
To most people, I'm just a lost sheep or whatever.
But no to those who are under the same condition as me.

Its just me.
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Ahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

God saved me!
And never will again!

=)

Sometimes I walk a little faster
In the school hallway just to get next to you
Some days I spend a little extra time
In the morning just to impress you

You don't even notice, guess you don't need this
Sad, you're not seeing what you're missing
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

I'm unusual, not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai Chi practicing, snowboard champion
I can fix the flat on your car
I might even be a rock star
I might even be a rock star
Sometimes I wish when the phone rings
That it would be you sayin', "Let's hang out"
You confess that there's something special
In between us, why don't we find out

-ROCK STAR_HANNAH MONTANA

空虚
没有你的日子 好空虚
宁愿被你伤害，被你侮辱，不能没有你

讨厌你 因为抢走我的心
走开吧 讨厌死了

好想恋你
，，。。
。。，，
来来去去的符号，能停止我对你的心动？

去死吧
法克

...
Emptiness,

WOOOOOO-----------WHEW---------------~~byebye

What is this feeling of despair?
I am pretty sure it is not of the trial exam.

I promised myself to keep a positive thinking, to keep on reaching out to my dreams, slowly.

Yet I am still falling into that gorge, again.

Facing non-alive objects, feeling that temporary bliss, I can't take this anymore.

It was always like that, I still can't accomplish something, a half bucket of water is always gonna be like that?

Planning again? Get real!

No!Not this time! I will get up before falling, I must stop thinking nonsense, I must get rid of it.
I used to just wait for help, maybe that's the reason for the inevitable fact of my weakness, fragility. Depending on music always, what a brat.

Is this just the side effect of growth?
Or its just me unwilling to face my deepest fears?

Who knows

Whew. Get going lazybum! You can do it! Stop that meaningless soliloquy!
Get real, bitch!

end of dramatic chapter.

by the E.M.O. guy

Happy 53rd anniversary.

Oops. I missed my 50th. So, here is the 53rd.

53 non-general stuff bout me (excluding my darkest secrets, like duh..):

1`I have two cute lil bros, namely Nicholas and Aaron.
2`My brothers are cute and cuddly.
3`I use a lot of tissue papers when watching movies.(get it?)
4`I <3>
5`My playlist=55% Japanese, 25% English, 15% Instrumentals, 5%Others.

6`I got the camwhore virus RECENTLY.
7`Very looking forward to jammin next wednesday with lik, rica, sam, seon, denish, n mayb some other ppl.

8`A dungu in many ways.
9`I hate History revised by Malaysian Government.

10`Enjoy new things, mostly.
11`Can read Japanese but understand 75% only.
12`Reading Sunadokei light novel.
13`Madly in love with Sunadokei eiga.

14`Madly, Psychoticly wants to further studies in Japan.
15`I have more dark secrets than anyone I know.

16`I once was a maths freak. But now no more, cuz I only like add maths.
17`I am a freak once you know my secret.
18`*secret*

19`Okay fine, no more secrets..Okay, now..Oh yeah, I forgot to reply ej, amy and elise's tags.
20`Tagging maybe for the next post.

21`Almost a psycho.
22`I hate you. Yes, you! The one reading this line. So you better don't read no. 22!

23`Sesated.
24`Sesated today, had manicure, thanks to Elise, Janne and Nisha.
25`Happy to finish my artwork today.
26`I am selfish in many ways.

27`I have 2 so called bff- liks and rica.
28`Sesated bcoz dunno how to make a giant switch fer liks as present.
29`Hates inconsiderate people.
30`Cannot stand up for myself.

31`Emotional.
32`Superly emotional.
33`Stupid.
34`Swears a lot.
35`Lost faith in all kinds of religions but afraid of ghosts.
36`Fear insects.

37`Cannot cope with people well.

38`Madly in love, plus a dark secret.

39`My room gets messy cuz my rate of cleaning it up is far lower than rate of throwing things everywhere.
40`I have some problems with my body. Weaksome.

41`Wastes time a lot.
42`Perasan.
43`Madly in love.

44`Peverted.
45`Freaks out like a girl when something frightens me.
46`Laughs uncontrollably when theres a good joke or likpins on his sarcasm switch.

47`Used to do lala hair.
48`FAT and PLUMP.
49`I cant smile properly.
50`I tried to be cheerful.

51`I love cute stuffs, like a gay only ==, but, I get damn high if got cute cute animals like my bunny.
52`My bunny is named BUBU. 3 years dy i think. Cutest stuff in my house.
53`Squeaky voices turn me on. XD squeaky dolls , squeaky shoes, cute babies, <3<3<3>

=3

Finally Im done, i actually have lotsa stuff more to write, well, I'll hafta wait till 100th anniversary =)

Jya ne.

T.T

This is the first time i get so overpsyched up by a novel lol.

But sigh~ guess what? Got NS.
Fine.

Urgh.
This is definitely not my day.
Ma even avoided me when i wanted to convince her to let me study in Japan.
sigh~ Anybody knows any good scholarships to Japan?

I have to pull up my socks and work my ass off the Sejarah textbook!!
Proving I ain't stupid! I want JAPAN!!
T.T

I love Sunadokei, and the theme song rox.
Touching love story, very.
I reccomend it to Japanese movie fans or manga fans!
Luv it.

Whew, luckily I din't buy eclipse, new moon all that.. If not I'll definitely fail my next Sejarah..

SELF CONTROL SELF DISCIPLINE!!
OKOK, ciao guys~

Sunadokei I Luv U

DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG!!!!!!

SANDS CHRONICLE light novel out~~!! YOSHI!! Got it!! =)

BUT. I WANT MANGA ~~!!!! DANG!! DANG!!

松下奈緒!! main actress!! luv her=D DANG! I am just simply dying to watch this Eiga!!

AMENH!!~~ (only lik knows wut i mean ;D )
http://www.betsucomi.shogakukan.co.jp/sunadokei/

visit~~!! dang just dang!!

i luv the trailer too =)

okay enough with my soliloquy.

I am here to invite ANYONE interested to the following illust/manga exhibition!!

PLS STRONGLY SUPPORT!!

I am exhibiting too=D

PLS SUPPORT~~

Perhaps we can go in groups too =D

Please support Malaysian artists!!

Gambarimasu`

Onegaishimasu~

Done =D

Ciao dudes-

IF.

"If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;"

If only i can do it. ~sigh~

"If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone, "

Seh Sen: IF!!! IF IF IF IF IF IF IF IF mr IF!!~~
Okay, fine you are right. But IF you don't know my problems please leave me alone when I emo at school. Please. I don't want you guys to really see my weak side but, IF i could only " force my heart and sinew".
Leave me be.

"If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch, "

Hmm, this is like so hard. I can't even wash the King's undies. Common touch? Nothing was ever common. Virtues? I don't possess any. That's why. IF~ i ever have virtues, I would never fail my Moral k?

"If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too: "

Hmm. This is hard. I can do it. But it is like difficult for a person in need of anti-psychotics like me.XD

"Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; "

This world is full of lies. In other NICE words, people put their own opinions or modifications to everything they say. Its human nature.
Hating, hmm. Duwanna talk bout it. Sensitive stuff.
Talk too wise, i agree. DO NOT talk too wise at Sri Kl. I am being schoolist yeah, sorry folks. DO NOT talk too wise at 5 Newton too.

Sri KL: Talking too wise, hmm.. You'll get yourself barbequed. Or backstabbed,cuz people there are very opinion-ous. Unwilling to listen. I admit having trouble to cope with CERTAIN people.

(lik: okok!! now now, anyone who gets the insulted or offended feeling is bcuz SUBCONCIOUSly, you are something like that!)
So as lik says~

5 Newton: CERTAIN people have very very very very strong jealousy, and that is definitely low mentality (lik says) oops lik, sorry again <:) This is what i experienced last year in 4 Newton lar. According to someone, SOME people are becoming like damn low mentality. I admit too, I have VERY MUCH TROUBLE coping with CERTAIN people.

"If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much: "

Wow thats like, immunity?
~sigh~

Just to update something lame cuz my blog was like dead.
-end of transmission-

ja ne?
kazjun

exams-ing

Nothing to post actually.
I wish to give some advice to liks and rica.
This what I learned recently.

Take it if it is compatible and leave it if it may seem illogical.

Any cases when the manipulator" bites you, leave him be and just do your stuff.
You dont need to bite back.
One who bites back to a dog is just another dog.
Leave the dog.
You can live better by ignoring them and just live your last year of high school life, once in a lifetime high school life to the fullest.

Thats all yea. Its just my opinion.
Peace, you guys.
Love ya.

prologue and epilogue of Charity Fiesta 2008 SKL

Yello! Some time since i've updated.

I am currently unwillingly blogging, but everything has a price to pay, and for this post its this:

Nice one, Elise. Nice one! x horizontal 8
I cant stop laughing X)

Chua is an impressionist, fyi.

That was for the prologue. Nothing much cause I did not cam whore much like Amy and Elise. Oops.
Well, on to the epilogue.

Honestly, I was very enthusiastic and excited about the whole Charity Fiesta thing.
Well, at least I wore the 'not-so-vulgar' shirt with Chua.

And, we cam whore. That's always for sure.
The whole thing was quite a success as I see. And I also got to see many different tastes of people, I mean in sense of fashion, or you could say 'dressing' XD
Well, I am a consciencious person. You cant blame me for acting like a stalker?? Okay, maybe a little over the limit.

Okay, thats off the topic. Back here. Well its real crowded there yesterday, as you can see below:

You may ask then why do I sound disappointed. This is why.

This is THE LINE for the not-so-long haunted house. And this is taken after an hour and a half's waiting.
We wasted too much time and missed so much other activities.
sigh~

Well whats done is done. I'm just line-up-o-phobic now.
Ok, bye fer now. Inspiration calls.