a freak like me

I personally prefer a freak likes me.
I had always been aware that I am not the only one suffering from emotional distress signals.
But it had been hard to just make it all out in words.

Words, I have never been good enough with them.
Let's go over to tzeyuh's post of 1 + 1 = 2 ?
I find similarities. You are not the only failure, same here, a lot. Except for law, I know nothing bout law.

Let's now go to likpin's post of Disaster!
I find similarities. Though I don't watch football, totally, I sense the familiar disappointment.
Which I have been always going through, or more accurately, trying to go through.

Many similarities I've found in the blog I've always been afraid to read.
Ej's post of Borned To Be Alone~ Der Wille zur Macht
Yes, yes. I've always admired your way of putting those thoughts into words, you are lucky to have the ability to express yourself. I'm totally envious.
Yes, of course. The Banting trend of forgetting people, I'm the opposite, I'd rather people forget me, just too used to it.
And of course I want to be like you, being able to express. People are deformed. Physically normal people are deformed, happy people are those who can treat them like normal normal people.

I want to be on that side. But I know no way. Me and my fantasies.
I am what people call abnormal, abomination, byproduct, weird, awkward, unacceptable.
Forget it. I CAN be normal, just the matter of fact that ITS HARD FOR ME.

You and I are both sensitive people, I am the over- type.
SOMETIMES Ej, it's just simply blissful to just be a dense person, y'know, like, acting stupid, or preferably BE stupid.

I'm just urging to let out all that stupendous amount of lameness and abnormality.

Fuck it. I find that I'm really dependent of my novels and headphones to keep me a smile, fading so hastily, like a drop of dew on the edge of a grass. Vapourised by the heat of summer.

Btw, I'm just dying to read all of Haruki Murakami's translated works, I've just read to halfway one of them, titled Norwegian Wood. Love it. Sad, but indeed such closeness and relativeness to our lives. Splendid writing. I ain't stoppin. It's gonna make me fail my Sejarah and Moral tomorrow.OWH! MORAL SHIT CRAP SHIT SHIT SHIT CRAP!!~~ HOLY MHOLY FATHER JESUS IN HEAVEN HELP ME WITH MY FREAKING MORAL INTOLERATION!

I have to go now, now that I have a lot of work to do - memorising nilais.

_toodles__