=)

Sometimes I walk a little faster
In the school hallway just to get next to you
Some days I spend a little extra time
In the morning just to impress you

You don't even notice, guess you don't need this
Sad, you're not seeing what you're missing
On the outside shyin' away
On the inside dyin' to say

I'm unusual, not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai Chi practicing, snowboard champion
I can fix the flat on your car
I might even be a rock star
I might even be a rock star
Sometimes I wish when the phone rings
That it would be you sayin', "Let's hang out"
You confess that there's something special
In between us, why don't we find out

-ROCK STAR_HANNAH MONTANA

空虚
没有你的日子 好空虚
宁愿被你伤害，被你侮辱，不能没有你

讨厌你 因为抢走我的心
走开吧 讨厌死了

好想恋你
，，。。
。。，，
来来去去的符号，能停止我对你的心动？

去死吧
法克

...
Emptiness,

WOOOOOO-----------WHEW---------------~~byebye

What is this feeling of despair?
I am pretty sure it is not of the trial exam.

I promised myself to keep a positive thinking, to keep on reaching out to my dreams, slowly.

Yet I am still falling into that gorge, again.

Facing non-alive objects, feeling that temporary bliss, I can't take this anymore.

It was always like that, I still can't accomplish something, a half bucket of water is always gonna be like that?

Planning again? Get real!

No!Not this time! I will get up before falling, I must stop thinking nonsense, I must get rid of it.
I used to just wait for help, maybe that's the reason for the inevitable fact of my weakness, fragility. Depending on music always, what a brat.

Is this just the side effect of growth?
Or its just me unwilling to face my deepest fears?

Who knows

Whew. Get going lazybum! You can do it! Stop that meaningless soliloquy!
Get real, bitch!

end of dramatic chapter.

by the E.M.O. guy

Happy 53rd anniversary.

Oops. I missed my 50th. So, here is the 53rd.

53 non-general stuff bout me (excluding my darkest secrets, like duh..):

1`I have two cute lil bros, namely Nicholas and Aaron.
2`My brothers are cute and cuddly.
3`I use a lot of tissue papers when watching movies.(get it?)
4`I <3>
5`My playlist=55% Japanese, 25% English, 15% Instrumentals, 5%Others.

6`I got the camwhore virus RECENTLY.
7`Very looking forward to jammin next wednesday with lik, rica, sam, seon, denish, n mayb some other ppl.

8`A dungu in many ways.
9`I hate History revised by Malaysian Government.

10`Enjoy new things, mostly.
11`Can read Japanese but understand 75% only.
12`Reading Sunadokei light novel.
13`Madly in love with Sunadokei eiga.

14`Madly, Psychoticly wants to further studies in Japan.
15`I have more dark secrets than anyone I know.

16`I once was a maths freak. But now no more, cuz I only like add maths.
17`I am a freak once you know my secret.
18`*secret*

19`Okay fine, no more secrets..Okay, now..Oh yeah, I forgot to reply ej, amy and elise's tags.
20`Tagging maybe for the next post.

21`Almost a psycho.
22`I hate you. Yes, you! The one reading this line. So you better don't read no. 22!

23`Sesated.
24`Sesated today, had manicure, thanks to Elise, Janne and Nisha.
25`Happy to finish my artwork today.
26`I am selfish in many ways.

27`I have 2 so called bff- liks and rica.
28`Sesated bcoz dunno how to make a giant switch fer liks as present.
29`Hates inconsiderate people.
30`Cannot stand up for myself.

31`Emotional.
32`Superly emotional.
33`Stupid.
34`Swears a lot.
35`Lost faith in all kinds of religions but afraid of ghosts.
36`Fear insects.

37`Cannot cope with people well.

38`Madly in love, plus a dark secret.

39`My room gets messy cuz my rate of cleaning it up is far lower than rate of throwing things everywhere.
40`I have some problems with my body. Weaksome.

41`Wastes time a lot.
42`Perasan.
43`Madly in love.

44`Peverted.
45`Freaks out like a girl when something frightens me.
46`Laughs uncontrollably when theres a good joke or likpins on his sarcasm switch.

47`Used to do lala hair.
48`FAT and PLUMP.
49`I cant smile properly.
50`I tried to be cheerful.

51`I love cute stuffs, like a gay only ==, but, I get damn high if got cute cute animals like my bunny.
52`My bunny is named BUBU. 3 years dy i think. Cutest stuff in my house.
53`Squeaky voices turn me on. XD squeaky dolls , squeaky shoes, cute babies, <3<3<3>

=3

Finally Im done, i actually have lotsa stuff more to write, well, I'll hafta wait till 100th anniversary =)

Jya ne.

T.T

This is the first time i get so overpsyched up by a novel lol.

But sigh~ guess what? Got NS.
Fine.

Urgh.
This is definitely not my day.
Ma even avoided me when i wanted to convince her to let me study in Japan.
sigh~ Anybody knows any good scholarships to Japan?

I have to pull up my socks and work my ass off the Sejarah textbook!!
Proving I ain't stupid! I want JAPAN!!
T.T

I love Sunadokei, and the theme song rox.
Touching love story, very.
I reccomend it to Japanese movie fans or manga fans!
Luv it.

Whew, luckily I din't buy eclipse, new moon all that.. If not I'll definitely fail my next Sejarah..

SELF CONTROL SELF DISCIPLINE!!
OKOK, ciao guys~

Sunadokei I Luv U

DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG DANG!!!!!!

SANDS CHRONICLE light novel out~~!! YOSHI!! Got it!! =)

BUT. I WANT MANGA ~~!!!! DANG!! DANG!!

松下奈緒!! main actress!! luv her=D DANG! I am just simply dying to watch this Eiga!!

AMENH!!~~ (only lik knows wut i mean ;D )
http://www.betsucomi.shogakukan.co.jp/sunadokei/

visit~~!! dang just dang!!

i luv the trailer too =)

okay enough with my soliloquy.

I am here to invite ANYONE interested to the following illust/manga exhibition!!

PLS STRONGLY SUPPORT!!

I am exhibiting too=D

PLS SUPPORT~~

Perhaps we can go in groups too =D

Please support Malaysian artists!!

Gambarimasu`

Onegaishimasu~

Done =D

Ciao dudes-

IF.

"If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;"

If only i can do it. ~sigh~

"If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone, "

Seh Sen: IF!!! IF IF IF IF IF IF IF IF mr IF!!~~
Okay, fine you are right. But IF you don't know my problems please leave me alone when I emo at school. Please. I don't want you guys to really see my weak side but, IF i could only " force my heart and sinew".
Leave me be.

"If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch, "

Hmm, this is like so hard. I can't even wash the King's undies. Common touch? Nothing was ever common. Virtues? I don't possess any. That's why. IF~ i ever have virtues, I would never fail my Moral k?

"If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too: "

Hmm. This is hard. I can do it. But it is like difficult for a person in need of anti-psychotics like me.XD

"Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; "

This world is full of lies. In other NICE words, people put their own opinions or modifications to everything they say. Its human nature.
Hating, hmm. Duwanna talk bout it. Sensitive stuff.
Talk too wise, i agree. DO NOT talk too wise at Sri Kl. I am being schoolist yeah, sorry folks. DO NOT talk too wise at 5 Newton too.

Sri KL: Talking too wise, hmm.. You'll get yourself barbequed. Or backstabbed,cuz people there are very opinion-ous. Unwilling to listen. I admit having trouble to cope with CERTAIN people.

(lik: okok!! now now, anyone who gets the insulted or offended feeling is bcuz SUBCONCIOUSly, you are something like that!)
So as lik says~

5 Newton: CERTAIN people have very very very very strong jealousy, and that is definitely low mentality (lik says) oops lik, sorry again <:) This is what i experienced last year in 4 Newton lar. According to someone, SOME people are becoming like damn low mentality. I admit too, I have VERY MUCH TROUBLE coping with CERTAIN people.

"If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much: "

Wow thats like, immunity?
~sigh~

Just to update something lame cuz my blog was like dead.
-end of transmission-

ja ne?
kazjun