back to basics

Soundtrack: Sunny Day, Koibumi, Reset

Mood: Disturbed

I am all confused now. Man, I never thought of seriously working out this problem, and I thought it was easy to work out but, now I am totally beat by the formula.

C=2πr

A=πr^2

Currently looking like hell for info to solve this knot. Hard one.

Anyone knows why is it that?
Argh..
I am blogging as searching for answers.

Miracle, I need you.

Circles are wonderful, perfect, but never noticed that it was such a devastating item.
And π HAD to be an irrational number. Man. Which means its not 22/7? Owh.

=after arduous reading=
I finally understand what is pi now. But why 2πr?
Man.

π is actually the ratio of the circumference of a circle to its diameter,that is, C/d.
And there are numerous attempts to calculate the value of π up to decimals, up to trillions.

And, not a single reccurence had occured. It is an irrational number, WTF.
Such rational shape with an irrational part of it, how ironic.

Well, I guess no harm of celebrating Pi Day =D next year maybe. Its on March 14 at 1:59:26 p.m =D
Have a π pie X0

Guess I'll just forget about getting to understand that two formulae.
Man. Screw it.

All hail π~

Off with misery.

Sunny Day

Soundtrack: Sunny Day_藤木一惠

Mood: Thoughtful

Went out with a bunch of great friends today to Sunway Pyramid.
Thanks to EJ, Sean, Benny, Seh Sen, Sam, Sik Weng and Shien Hong.

We had a lot of fun then.
And watched a Jap named "Accuracy of Death" starring Takashi Hanashiro.
To be honest the choice was just in the hands of chance. Brilliant choice.
I want to watch it again and again.

Clouds in the shallow cavity of my heart had cleared.
Yes, a sunny day.
I've learned a lot. Something sufficient to make a big change in my life.
I will never hold back anymore.
Further details unavailable cuz I'm out of words now, just drowning in my feelings.

Of course a wonderful movie has a wonderful song.
It is titled "Sunny Day".
I'm putting it on the jukebox over there. Enjoy.

etichetta

Soundtrack: 恋文 Every Little Thing

Mood: holiday-ish

=TAGGED BY ELISE CHO PUI MUN=
~go visit her blog @ EXITS~
Thanks for tagging hehe.


1.What is the relationship of you and her?
>>She is my monitor in class.
>>A blog friend who's crazy over blogging.
>>We are from the same clan of the CAMWHORES
>>We are bffs of 5 beta =D

2. Your 5 impressions towards her.
>>Brave to love.
>>Friendly and easy to approach.
>>Faithful blogger like me =P
>>Sometimes EMO like me.
>>Forgetful.

3. The most memorable things she has done for you.
>>Talked to me, been my blog friend, most importantly took out BREAKING DAWN in front of me!! Argh..Haha..

4. The most memorable thing she had say to you.
>>"Andre, don't emo!"

5. If she becomes your lover, you will...
>>Uh, she has a boyfriend, fyi. Uh, just to answer the question, I'll go with - go out with her lar.

6. -question lost-

7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...
>>Add Maths & emo-tolerance.

8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
>>Buying all of my favourite books to tease me =/

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is...
>>Talk bout stuffs we both like all day, for example, novels & music. Not to mention how to emo more XD

10. The overall impression of her is...
>>A teenage girl. Duh...

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
>>I don't know. I don't care.

12. The character you like of yourself is...
>>Logical and sentimental at the right times.

13. On contrary, the character you hate for yourself is...
>>Sometimes too logical. Sometimes too sentimental, = E.M.O.

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is...
>>Me with a better logic and a better way with words.

15. For the people who like and care about you, say something to them.
>>Hi. Stay strong. Stick together, stink together. Don't give up making choices. Running away is never an option. Always love yall. Thanks for everything you guys done, not just for me, but for yourselves too.

16. 10 friends to tag:
1>>Amy
2>>Elise (Back to you =D)
3>>EJ
4>>Liks
5>>Erica
6>>Samuel
7>>Lik Wei
8>>Amirah
9>>Jun Sean
10>>Tze Yuh

17. Who is no2 having a relationship with?
>>Some guy from outside our school. That's all I know.

18. Is no3 a male or a female?
>>Male. Duh.

19. If no7 and no10 were together, would it be a good thing?
>>Uh, they're already friends. If you mean getting TOGETHER together, then NO WAY!

20. How about no5 and no8?
>>Why is it such gross coincidence? NO WAY..

21. What is no1 studying about?
>>She's reading manga for now =D

22. Is no4 single?
>>Yep. Definitely.

23. Say something about no6?
>>ROXXX to the core =D

-+=owari=+-

pause

Soundtrack: Sayounara, Aarigatou- Natsukawa Rimi
Mood: Weirdly empty

Currently really crazy about this new author I came across-Haruki Murakami.
Simply wanting all his works now. Translated of course.

I just finished one of his works "Norwegian Wood".
About the story: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norwegian_Wood_(novel)

He's the style I'm looking for, to pursue my own dreams of writing novels.

His astounding way of putting thoughts, imaginations into words stirs the emotions out of me and indeed captured 100% of interest. Not to mention his sense of humour, always funny, yet sensible as the timing is so perfect.

I couldn't resist the moment I reached home and started reading all the way through the end of it. But I didn't want it to end, just yet. I've always hated endings, they drain something from my heart, leaving an untraced weird emptiness.

Just like how the trials ended. It was all different, it's something you don't get all year eh? Some people made different jokes, some people smiled more (apart from me), some people frown more and get all tracks on their faces, some can even play around more. It's a beautiful event, a DIFFERENT view, and ending just came swishing through. I just can't bear to understand the emptiness I feel from it. Plus, we even get holidays for it, now. I'll miss 5 beta for a week.

Wouldn't it feel better, I mean having school after trials for one week, I mean, trials been pulling us apart in certain ways, maybe it would be better if we had one more week to play and enjoy classes together in class before parting out to our relaxing holidays?

AWKWARD-- Why am I saying all this? Hell. Well I still have to gear up and get ready for the fun of holidays, adapt to it! Play like siao and talk like siao and just have fun, lots of 'em.

Plans: tomorrow basketball!! sunday ktv!!! ~blank~to be filled up later...

Btw I am so worked up I can't wait to buy other books from my newly adored author.
ESPECIALLY: -Kafka on the Shore
-The Wind-up Bird Chronicle

Intrigued and totally amused by the beautiful work of Norwegian Wood,

I CAN_NOT WAIIITTTTTT~~~~~~!!!

I wish to quote some snippets from the story, for the one, and for my beloved friendlies.

"You're really cute, so cute that the mountains crumble and the oceans dry up."

"I like you a lot."

"How much is a lot?"

"Like a spring bear."

"What's that all about? A spring bear."

"You're walking through a field all by yourself one day in spring, and this sweet little bear cub with velvet fur and shiny eyes comes walking along. And he says to you, 'Hi there, little lady. Want to tumble with me?' So you and the bear cub spend the whole day in each other's arms, tumbling down the clover-covered hill. Nice, huh?"

Doctor:"Wow, that's some short skirt you're wearing!"

"Nice, huh?"

"What do you do on stairways?"

"Nothing special, I let it all hang out."The nurse chuckled behind the doctor.

"Incredible. You oughta come and let us open your head one of these days to see what's going on in there. Do me a favour and use the lifts while you're still in the hospital. I can't afford to have any more patients. I'm way too busy as it is."

Owh, I'm gonna reread it after i get Kafka on the Shore!! @@

DESIRES>>

Well, that pretty much summarises my inspiration today. Tired.
Rumors say that Norwegian Wood would be out as film in 2010!!

MORE DESIRES>>

Okay, enough. Thats the gist of it.
Jyaa ne {@,,,#}"

edge of trials, edge of 5 beta life

Music: humming sound from computer

Mood: jumbled up

Owh, its odd, now I feel so down. I had always wanted to blog my inspirations but my timing aren't just right.

~"We are normal, because we know that we are not normal,"~

Norwegian Wood

Whew, just some info update, today was physics, and it is the first time that I find it harder than devastating biology. Possible reasons are:

1-Couldn't concentrate-private emotional problem. (But I am proud to say I did not emo.)

2-Couldn't concentrate-Slept late reading Norwegian Wood

3-Couldn't concentrate-There was this screeching sound in the hall--shaddup lah!

4-Couldn't concentrate-Kept thinking about ...

5-Couldn't concentrate-Its cold in there...

6-Couldn't concentrate-Brain's been acting weird lately

7-Couldn't concentrate-Sprained foot hurts.

8-Couldn't concentrate-Kept thinking about ...

9-I'm stuck in the midst of life.

Reading seems to be the only way to let me calm down now. Argh.

Btw, its a great book. Norwegian Wood. Despite the open-ness bout free sex, its GREAT.

I got addicted.

Haih, I just need to train my timing. Or jot down my thinking anytime.

I feel like crying a second time now. Just need to release. Mungkin perlukan pencetus aje.

I'll be OK.

Its gonna be the holidays, and after that, I think many people would skip school.

Will you still be there?

Well I'm sure to go to school everyday now. I don't want to lose the last days in 5beta. In sri kl. In high school. As an adolscent.

All hail my life. I worship beauty of mother earth.

Jya, sayounara-

suki desu.

Music: Style- Kana Nishino

Mood: Euphoric

Yep, that is exactly wut it looks like liks. People don't just tend to copy you, they copy ur bro XD Notice the top right portion* (kinda reminds me of dA now...)

-Poetic mode now-

People, please do enjoy this piece of lyric. Beautifully written.

It’s beginning now

What kind of future waits for us

If I knock on the door that entwines us together?

As we’re growing, what we’re searching for

Is a perfect style

Someday, like gears turning

Everything will fall into place

God, if you’re there, listen to me

You have to watch over these moments, forever

these days we can never repeat

So just for a little while longer

I always want to be a kid

There are many boys and girls

Hiding behind in this world and dreaming

And that’s my story

Today the twilight is diminishing

What just keeps leaving?

I can hear your approaching footsteps

You hold and close many everyday lives

The night sky isn’t that bad

As the planet shines with the perfect background

God, are you listening to the Happy Song

I’m recording for the permanant preservation

Take 1, 2,..FOR YOU!

Now after a little more

I want to sing loudly

Even though your hair is being pulled

You’re thinking it’s faint

Everyday life flows, lala the melody will be on the musical scale

This world is black or white

Give meaning to each and every moment, paint my life

It doesn’t give any ambiguity to the grey ‘3D’

That’s the usual platitude of adults

God, if you’re there, listen to me

You have to watch over these moments, forever

these days we can never repeat

So just for a little while longer

I always want to be a kid

Just like Peter Pan

In morning light of this world

You’ll wake up All right?

beautiful, expressive.

whew, just finished chemistry today, (hehe), I'm laughing again =D

Easy cheesy the paper was.

But sigh, tomorrow is bio, stress.

I can't concentrate now,

just because you smiled.

and then its stuck in my mind now.

bye for now.

60th anni-ur head-versary

This following week is the second week of the not-so-seemingly-arduous spm trial exams.

Tomorrow will be add maths so i am here-oops sorry i mean-YET i am here blogging.

XD

kepala otak kau:: ::
this is the 60th post sejak ku buka blog ini tau?
jadi buat lah syok syok sendiri.
-lame-

60 stuff i like about add maths:
1. I like add maths.
2. I prefer add maths to maths.
3. I have a liking towards add maths.
4. I love add maths.
5. Add maths loves me too.
6. Add maths likes me.
7. My favourite pasttime is doing add maths.
8. I love doing add maths.
9. Ok this is hard. Let's skip.
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......
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59. Add Maths wa, daisuki desu yo =D
60. Add Maths is easy, and easy to make mistakes =D

All done.
Wut a lame post?

`tak de la, semua same je, lame lame...`
`ape kaucakap? nak makan tumbuk ku ke? tak tau mati?`
`mari la! sui pa sui? kok ji ah?`
`fuk9 u ah, u bo ji lah, XXY sindrom ke? Nak makan tindak balas kalium dengan air liur kau?`
`wat larrrrr? wat the fuck u talking?!! saye fail kimia and boilogi lar, lame. ape kata kau makan graf y=punca kuasa dua x ku? har?`
`eat this! 3+3=9! pro kan?`
`har and u pass add maths ar? wat the fuck...then bow down you ***** cuz i'm king now.`
`diam lar. kepala otak maukah? makan Tamadun Mesopotamia,Hammurabi wutever wutever stupid shit.`
`lame lar. cut it off.`

-end of lameness-

off practicing add maths again, ciao~

a freak like me

I personally prefer a freak likes me.
I had always been aware that I am not the only one suffering from emotional distress signals.
But it had been hard to just make it all out in words.

Words, I have never been good enough with them.
Let's go over to tzeyuh's post of 1 + 1 = 2 ?
I find similarities. You are not the only failure, same here, a lot. Except for law, I know nothing bout law.

Let's now go to likpin's post of Disaster!
I find similarities. Though I don't watch football, totally, I sense the familiar disappointment.
Which I have been always going through, or more accurately, trying to go through.

Many similarities I've found in the blog I've always been afraid to read.
Ej's post of Borned To Be Alone~ Der Wille zur Macht
Yes, yes. I've always admired your way of putting those thoughts into words, you are lucky to have the ability to express yourself. I'm totally envious.
Yes, of course. The Banting trend of forgetting people, I'm the opposite, I'd rather people forget me, just too used to it.
And of course I want to be like you, being able to express. People are deformed. Physically normal people are deformed, happy people are those who can treat them like normal normal people.

I want to be on that side. But I know no way. Me and my fantasies.
I am what people call abnormal, abomination, byproduct, weird, awkward, unacceptable.
Forget it. I CAN be normal, just the matter of fact that ITS HARD FOR ME.

You and I are both sensitive people, I am the over- type.
SOMETIMES Ej, it's just simply blissful to just be a dense person, y'know, like, acting stupid, or preferably BE stupid.

I'm just urging to let out all that stupendous amount of lameness and abnormality.

Fuck it. I find that I'm really dependent of my novels and headphones to keep me a smile, fading so hastily, like a drop of dew on the edge of a grass. Vapourised by the heat of summer.

Btw, I'm just dying to read all of Haruki Murakami's translated works, I've just read to halfway one of them, titled Norwegian Wood. Love it. Sad, but indeed such closeness and relativeness to our lives. Splendid writing. I ain't stoppin. It's gonna make me fail my Sejarah and Moral tomorrow.OWH! MORAL SHIT CRAP SHIT SHIT SHIT CRAP!!~~ HOLY MHOLY FATHER JESUS IN HEAVEN HELP ME WITH MY FREAKING MORAL INTOLERATION!

I have to go now, now that I have a lot of work to do - memorising nilais.

_toodles__

she's back =D

she makes me laugh so badly =D

Let's get outta this.

Woohoo! My e mail has lotsa junks! Garage sale, anyone?

Ok, this is the stuff, well, I received a number of mails that are not, of course, of good intentions.
One of them says stop eating sushi and another one says japanese people eat foetus.

Now, the first person I would critic is Ms. Erica Yen aka. hyperactive gal.
Y'know what? I'd just say this, 谣言止于智者。

Both e mails were criticising, obviously Japan. Well, to some people who don't think, or use their logics first before forwarding, what I wanna say is, please use your brain, your mom gave it to you so put it to proper use. Fyi, Japan is currently (well not so current) having some conflict with Korea, details I don't know, so, like duh, Korea must defend itself right? SOME are ""PATRIOTIC"" so they even spread their pengaruh to other nations thru the cyber world.

I may seem idiotic, but those who believe without analysing are none other than imbeciles.

For pictures, there are (like duh) very advanced programs that can do it. In the passages, they even used so much reverse psychosis or whatever-you-call-them. Don't be a victim.

WE- wise people must not be fooled by these kind of stuff, moreover, by our own leaders.
Y'know what? I heard from EJ, that our second prime minister was an evil genius.

Sometimes being patriotic isn't just about loving your country. It's about NOT letting your country falling into false hands of evil. And ego.

ANALYSE! people! And yeah, great leaders DO! They don't just promise, say, promise, say say say, critic only.

I'm sick of being a citizen, where we have to just get sandwiched in and/or become victims of this political stuffs.

I support world peace. One world. One utopia. One gaia.

Let's get outta this.

kazjun '08洵

Trial Season

I've always been a fan of Ikimono Gakari.
Sharing something, I'm in love of, or perhaps depending on.



It's September,
Already.

I feel uneasy, yet so dramatic and emotional.
Damn, my brain's nor working I guess. Everything's blur, unclear.

Existence. What is it? I'm simply confused yet afraid.
Why can't you be here with me for it?

I can't do this alone.
I'm all alone.

All my dreams are crushed now.
Well never mind, the end is coming soon.
Goodbye.

How could you?
Why did you took my heart out? Yet leaving me with emptiness.
I don't want that, I dunno how to face that.

Simple reality, yet complex emotions and problems arise.
This is the nature of my existence?
To most people, I'm just a lost sheep or whatever.
But no to those who are under the same condition as me.

Its just me.
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Ahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

God saved me!
And never will again!