β.δ.γ.

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!STRESSSSSSSSSSss......................................

not from exam but, urgh...why can i frown over sth so simple?pls tell me wat to do....im so unhappy but happy in beta but....

urghh i want better teachers!!! and better class...its just too much...

demanding, thats me.hate this situation. so frus to make decisions..its not that the class has prob, but i just cant cope with it!!

esp chemistry, yes chemistry..to be honest, now i want pn nasiwah back.

and physics, urghhh i cant believe im saying this but i want the the annyoing sarcasm king back..

then bm,now new teacher agin..dunno why they all hate cik teo so much..she's the best bm teacher ever!! i can see improvement in my bm lar..i noe u all got tuition lar (some of them) but...urgh..

then english...cant you stop giving papers, pn d***? its hard compiling it ya? i hate it..consumes so much time!! waste of time..

then bio, omg this is the worst..annoying brats..(some lar...not my frens)pn zawiyah is a good teach, no one realises it. she's dedicated yet some spoiled brats always interupt her teaching then all that...urghh...emo.....she planted the interest in bio in me..she tries her best always and yet there are spoiled brats to ruin it.sorry but its too much..

but,from the first day to beta till now,there's still sense of familarity, frens there..

how can i betray them?

urghhh....

izit my fault?

urghhh...

i made little frens but its just too hard for me to betray..

my frens:

-ej:best of the best fren n cuz..i think he'll be mad at me for decades if i decide to change class..=D

-s.sean:best dai lou..straightforward..protective bro=)

-c.wei:best fren..a lil funny..straightforward..friendly..he'll hit me if i tell him i wanna change..=P

-s.sen:best joker in class..concerning..extrovert..but he'll be the happiest person if i change class..cuz i made him a non-top-10..gg <=)

-sam:quiet but funny..hehe^^

-amy:best blog fren..funny..caring..good english=) oh yea and CAMWHORER like me

-elise:best blog fren..best class monitor..CAMWHORER=P

-w.chua:best msn fren..funny!..best red house fren..great runner^^

-z.zung:best drawing fren..quiet but good at chinese^^

-c.shyen:best drawing fren..everyones fren!..mizugami--watergod..he drinks more than 4 bottles a day @school!!

-benny:best msn fren..he's the best^^lol he recomended 2 films that changed my thinking and life..thx benny!! @.@

how shud i face them??urghh and then..more urghhhhhhhhhs.....

anyone? help?-echoes-....

i'm desperate..

sorry wrong pic XD

tasukete..

signing off,

kazjun

lyricwhorer

this is the lyrics to my new fav song Am I Wrong? by my fav artist YUI..
posting for fun..nvm if cant understand..just as deco and fun to me=)

黙っていた　それはYESかNOだけで
決められないことだってすぐにわかったから

目をそらしたら
たぶん　話し出すのね？
あなたは・・・

こわいものなんてないの
失うものなんてないの
今日も歌を作りました
許してゆこうと歌いました　それなのに・・・

電話が鳴る　一時中断しただけで
笑ったりよくできるなと　見ていた

機嫌が悪いだけだと
きっと思ってるんでしょう？
あなたは・・・

守るものはたったひとつ
心に嘘はつけないの
今日も歌を作りました
続けてゆこうと歌いました　それなのに・・・

わかりあえないね　あなたとは

困らせたりしたくないよ
でも譲るわけにいかないよ
明日も歌を作るから
偽りなく生きていたいよ
それなのに・・・それだけなのに　ah ah

Am I wrong?

ambiguity of my life

guess u guys know what this is huh? yeap the periodic table..hehe some place to start my yapping.im very interested in chemistry,i mean the pure chemistry thing..not the 'kemistery' devised by our goood govt..to be honest..it sucks..letting us know the least, ya know the feeling of knowing something but not knowing the truth of it or whole of it?

well lets cut the crap..

chemistry is just like our world.there are so many different kinds of people.just as many as there are so many elements and compunds present in our eccentric world..there is always ambiguity-nothing is definite in this world,almost.hehe.

i just lost my inspiration of blogging bout this topic..probably from the stress of my lousy internet connection but well what can i do bout it? acceptance is the only way, why stress? wait for the correct time to tackle the problem.=)

i feel great.growing up to being an adult is great.knowing more.realising.though it is stressful its worth it to embrace the process.

iijanai ka koron datte? mada okiakareba dainkara. koronda tsuide ni sorao miagereba, aoizora ga kyomo kagirinaku hirokata hohoendeiru. atashiwa ikiterunda.

isnt it okay to fall down? just stand up again. at the same time of falling, look at the sky, today's blue sky is also smiling without borders. i'm alive. =)

well so far today is the fastest recovery from emo-ing for me this year. i hope to improve to be a more optimistic and cheerful person so that i can be 100% camwhorer lol=)

i hope to complete further research done currently ASAP so that i can do more things such as improving my vocab for my novel..perhaps i can start writing, since so much inspiration is flowing in.no waiting! hehe..but at least wait till during exams la..now do preparation 1st then exam relax..my style =P

i'm ok.i always will.

把手放在胸口上，能感觉心跳‘怦怦’的声音，好高兴啊，我还活着。

妈妈，在我心中有着一直相信我的妈妈存在，今后也请你多多关照了。总是让您担心，对不起了。

不会再说想要回到那一天，我要认同现在的自己活下去。

虽然也会被无心的目光所刺伤，也明白了同样有温柔的目光。

signing off,

kazjun.08

lost

nothing here.bye.

fuck.its me.no way i can take it.this is too much.im lost.fuck.so many problem budging in.fuck.fuck.now i realise i will emo w'out some music.fuck.dependent lil brat.fuck.im ok.just..fuck.i need to release.just...lemme say sth...FU_CK.